Realistic plans for once…

Hello from Tokyo!

If you follow my Twitter (full of random annoying stories of my life) you may already know that I’m currently staying two months in Japan. I’m living in this small hostel near Ueno Park aka my favorite place in Tokyo and the life is smiling. Or at least it should be.

I failed at daily blogging for a millionth time. I should be enjoying my life in this interesting city but the guilt is making that hard. My sleeping schedule is totally off so I have been laying awake in my dorm bed. Me doing nothing in darkness is never a good sign. I have plan and that’s second thing you should be careful about when getting to know me!

But jokes aside… I have a plan and for once it may even work. Daily blogging was good idea in theory. It started so well, I had never been so motivated and for a moment everything seemed just fine. However, the problem with me is simple:

If I skip just one day, it will be the end. One day not blogging doesn’t sound so bad but for me it’s the start of “well I will just take second, third, fourth and so on day off” spiral that won’t ever stop. If I would be able to write every day that wouldn’t be so huge problem.

This time my plan is designed for my own needs. I sat in front of imaginary mirror and asked myself what I truly need.

We will start slow.

The aim of my plan is to get my travel, writing, review and business blogs going smoothly but also find way to succeed in social media. SoMe is important part of blogging nowadays but at the same time I’m just struggling with it.

So, how do I archive all this if daily blogging is out of the questions?

I will start slowly and make writing these blogs part of my daily routine. It already worked with Twitter. Last month ai gave extra attention for tweeting and being on twitter. Now it comes almost naturally for me. It’s part of my routine.

This month I will add Instagram and my travel blog to this routine. I want to make one travel post per week but also publish to Insta three times per day.

After those two “new things” feel natural (hopefully next month) it’s time to try out Pinterest one last time. Hopefully I can also start making reviews again.

Then I just add the rest of the blogs to my routine one by one.

If this plan doesn’t work, I’m out of options.

With love,

Viivi

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Leaving everything for the last minute…

Dear readers,

today I’m trying to write learning diary that I should have started a long time ago and continue doing during the last two months. I haven’t written even one sentence before realizing today that I have only two more days before the deadline. Does this ever happen to you? Or am I the only one who struggles with doing everything last minute?

It’s impossible to recall what we did during the weekend my creative writing course’s last weekend took place. “Creative processes” that’s the subject but I can’t come up even one thing I learned. Not even one idea to add to my learning diary. Neither have I any idea have I even been writing in April or May.

This has to be some kind of punishment for never doing anything on time!

Usually, faking is my specialty. I survived high school with above average scores doing only the minimal amount of homework and never studying to tests if I wasn’t interested (and I was only interested in psychology and writing…) My life has been full of events not requiring me to give my everything for them. After high school, I ended up studying business: I was one of the best but literally skipped half of the classes. Now I’m working on my own but even that doesn’t challenge me enough.

And then I started studying creative writing in open university. Still seems like a dream. For the first time, I really wanted to do everything I could to be the best I can. But getting the full scores doing nothing just didn’t encourage me enough. Maybe this should be the happiest moment of my life? The best of best Finnish creative writing teachers liked my writing enough to give me great feedback and best possible scores! Why can’t I enjoy this moment?

Easy has never been for me. Normal has never been for me. I get bored and that will end killing me. I’m not even kidding…

So, now after not trying and never doing anything I’m getting punished. And even then I know that I will survive with good enough results. It’s sad to live life always trying just enough to keep going but never enough to really get invested in anything.

But I’m not giving up. I never give up. 

Sorry for this odd diary entry. But expect more of them in the future! I’m trying to be real so it means getting my messy thought on the blog…

With love,
Lost Viivi

And she was lost…

I don’t know who I’m. I don’t know where I’m going. Lost. So lost in my own body, between being happy and not having the right road to walk.

People keep giving me advice but never anything concrete.
Find your passion.
Do what you love.
Get a proper job.
Remember to study.
Don’t give up.
Just keep going.
Find yourself.

How can one find herself? How can you keep going when you know what you want and still you feel stuck? The things I want and need keep changing every second of the day. Right now, writing is my passion. Tomorrow I would love to play games all day long just to want to study psychology the day after that. How can you decide? There’s no way one thing can satisfy me.

I’m writing hundred and one blogs even if it’s too much for me. My drawer is full of half-finished stories waiting for the writer. In my mind everything is good but small things like brushing my teeth can turn my way in the opposite direction. Standing 2 minutes in my dark bathroom only my thoughts keeping me company feels like a death sentence.

What if I’m going towards a wrong lifestyle for me?
What if I end up hating writing after doing it as my job?
Wouldn’t it just be easier to give up?
Why? Why I have to be like this? Why can’t I shut down my brain?

And then everything changes. I never get anywhere because I never give my all to one thing. It’s not because I don’t want, it’s because I don’t know how.

With love,
Lost Viivi

Adjusting to daily blogging

I’m proud of myself. I have only skipped writing a post twice during this month. The goal was to have at most 3 unsuccessful writing days. There are still days left but this is looking fine!

However, I have to adjust my schedule a little bit. Having too many long posts to write isn’t that good idea and I’m missing my 10 minutes thoughts series where I just ramble about nothing important. The new schedule is here!

Daily blogging schedule:
[Mon: Reviews, Tues: BusinessWed: TravelThu:  Lifestyle
Fri: WritingSat: ReviewsSun: LifestyleDaily: Photographs]

Looks unreal to have post ideas for every day of the week but at the same time, I’m loving this… Imagine if you could just spend all your days writing blog posts? How could I make that possible? Any ideas? Well, for some time now I just have to keep doing my other lovely jobs. No complaining!

With love,
Lost Viivi

5 Memories From 2016

I was going through the drafts I have never published on this blog and I found this one. 5 memories from the year 2016. I know, I know. It is almost the summer of 2018 so this is super late. Better to get used to this because I have never been someone good with deadlines I give for myself… But hey I have already written this so here are some exceptional memories from my year 2016. I hope you enjoy!

1. First night alone in my first own home. I didn’t have any furniture so I had to sleep on the floor. I only had two blankets and a pillow. It was freezing and too quiet. All I was able to see was the streetlight outside of my window and the beautiful sky. Still, this is not a bad memory but rather a happy one. All I can remember is the amazing feeling of living on my own… New city, new school and me totally alone. It started as an adventure.

2. Completing my first Fiverr gig. And especially getting paid for the first travel article I wrote. Even now after doing this as my full-time job and writing hundreds of paid travel articles for different websites I can’t describe the feeling of earning money with my own writings. This is definitely the thing I want to do with my life. And I will never forget this memory, the unbelievable feeling that someone found my writing good enough to pay for it.

3. Road trip around France’s coastline. Me and two older ladies drove around France’s sunny seaside cities. We left in the early morning and returned after dark. Once again life showed me that traveling and adventuring to new places is my passion.

4. My first school day. I was scared to death because being social has never been my strength. Starting school after a long gap year seemed like the worst decision on that morning. I was staying at a cute hostel and decided to escape there on every break because I didn’t know what to do. It felt like starting the first grade all over again. Later on, I found a lot of friends but also dropped out because school is just not for me.

5. Realizing that my travel blog may be kind of “big deal”. It wasn’t just one moment and I haven’t yet fully understood it. But there have been many moments when someone says something or everytime someone comments on my blog that I realize how my blog has grown out of my hands. I mean I would have never guessed at the start of the year when I wrote my first post that at the end of the year I would have over thousand readers. Isn’t that crazy? (Yes, even now in 2018 with several blogs and thousands of readers this is still crazy…)

Do you have any crazy memories from 2016 (or later years) that you can remember? Or are you like me who forgets posts like this and the publishes them years later? Like always all comments are more than welcome!

With love,

Viivi Who Remembers

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Photos of my April

We’re going to start a monthly tradition on this blog! Cool right? It will be posting photo diary of my life during the month. Usually, I will try to time this photo diary for the last Sunday of every month but this time (like you can see) we will start a little late.

Keep in mind that I’m not a professional photographer. In fact, my skills are still close to zero and don’t even mention my editing fails… But this photo diary is also a way to learn new by taking me to the edge of my own comfort zone. Who knows what I will learn after trying to take photos for this diary every month! Let’s start…

Japanese food in Finland

I started my month by traveling to Turku and spending a few days in my friend’s place. We went to eat Japanese meal. I haven’t eaten anything so good for a long time! It made me remember why I’m so eager to return to Japan later this year. Tokyo here I come in a few months.

Blogger in winter

After returning back home from Turku, I only had a few days before leaving for my dreamy holiday in Turkey. Like you can see from the photo above, the weather in Finland wasn’t the ideal at that time but the forecast was promising almost 30 degrees of hotness for my time in Alanya. A perfect escape from cold wintery Finland!

Beach life in Alanya

I have to admit that I wasn’t expecting a lot from Alanya. In Finland, it has kind of trashy reputation and my flight was terrible! (I will be telling that story in my travel blog in two weeks.) Despite my belief that I could just relax on my all-inclusive hotel, I fell for Alanya while driving through it towards my accommodation. It was sunny, it was exotic, it was like a paradise. See the photo of that beach? How could you not like Alanya?

After sunbathing and writing for a few days, I decided to update my Insta after a too long time. Taking photos just isn’t my thing and uploading them to Instagram just stressed me out. I would need someone to edit my photos, come up with clever texts and publish them… Anyone wanna do not paid internship? Just kidding!

Beautiful beach in Turkey

My plan was to just eat, swim in the beautiful pool and read books during this holiday. It was also going to be a writing retreat. All of those plans happened – kind of. I just didn’t take in count the long walking trip to adventure around Alanya. Nothing can keep my inner traveler in check and so even during relaxation holiday like this, I kept hearing the call of the sea, unknown streets and city I was staying for the first time. I walked tens of kilometers but there’re no regrets.

Another thing I did during my two weeks in Alanya was going to see the sunset from the beach. Only one huge street separated my hotel and the waterfront from each other. I would go to eat dinner, then walk to the beach and walk back to have dessert after the sun disappeared behind mountains and water. Usually, I was one of the only people left there. So quiet. Just me writing poems to my notebook or walking in the chilly sea water.

drinks and

Okay, this book has kind of funny story behind it. I wrote a lot during my first week in the hotel. Blogging, stories, and poems. At some point one of the hotel staff members asked me could I maybe tell him what I’m always writing. I have no idea how but he knew that I was blogging. Maybe I’m just so easy to read? Well, after that I found these things from my room. So embarrassing… I mean I know my travel blog is starting to be kind of “a big deal” but still as shy anxious Finn things like this just are too much for me. Could I return to the anonymous blogging? Please?

Blogger writing with food

And here is another photo from my perfect writer lifestyle! Food, good music and writing as long or as much as I want. There wouldn’t be a better way to live your life if you ask my opinion.

blogger drinking Starbucks

Then I returned home feeling unreal. After you have lived the dream for two weeks it feels odd to come back but at the same time I was full of motivation. Being put and doing nothing isn’t my thing. My life has to be moving all the time even if it means me being deadly tired. In fact, from this holiday I found the strenght to start daily blogging again!

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Remember the snowy photo that was taken just before I left for my trip? If not just roll back up and look at it for a minute… I was away for two weeks and this photo is how it was looking in Finland when I returned! Now snow. No cold. No winter anymore. Welcome to Finnish weather… Our seasons change in one night. I’m not even kidding.

pretty sneakers and Finnish nature

That was literally my month. The last week went by trying to set back home and working my ass off. However, I also made plans. These plans make my blogging possible and take me slowly towards my goals. (Who knows what those goals even are…) Then I started this month with a power I have never felt. I’m ready to take control of my own life! It’s the first time for me being this excited about living a normal life without traveling.

How are you? Any big plans to make your spring great? Like always all comments are more than welcome!

With love,
Not So Lost Viivi

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Daily blogging again!

I’m trying it again and this time I have a plan. Who knows if it will come true…

In January I promised myself to start daily blogging but then life happened like usually. It only took a few short months for my life to turn upside down. Dropping out from my university, taking the creative writing studies more seriously and deciding to go full time as a writer. And then in addition to all that I decided to start my own company.

It truly has been busy.

But then I spent two weeks holiday in Turkey last month. My life has been full of travels around the world for two years but the last time I went on real relaxation holiday was ages ago. Relaxing under a sun in all-inclusive resort made me realize the truth: I love writing but I want to be a blogger.

My dream has as long as I remember been to write a book. This shy awkward girl has had a head full of stories and plot ideas starting from the kindergarten. It’s still my dream but I’m growing and realizing more things about myself. Earlier this year I talked about not wanting to be full-time traveler even if that had been my aim for over a year. This is similar realization.

I love creative writing but that’s not something I want to do as a full-time job. Neither do I want to continue forever writing blog posts and content for others. Blogging. I seem to drift towards it again and again. It’s hard but so are all the best things in our lives. For some reason writing freely these silly things talking about myself, traveling, writing and books are just like a dream.

Could I do this as my job someday in the future?
Maybe, maybe not.
To find out I have to keep writing and that’s why I’m back at this daily blogging thing. Even if this never goes anywhere, I can later return back to these days thinking that I truly kept doing what I love despite opinions of everyone else.

So, are you ready? New posts should be coming every day!
I have promised myself that I can skip 3 days every month. If I don’t follow that rule, it means surviving the next month without any sweets. Terrible, right?

Here is my blogging schedule that may change at any time:

Mondays: Book reviews
Tuesdays: Life as a wannabe girlboss
Wednesdays: Travel blogging
Thursday: Writing my review blog
Friday: Blog post about creative writing
Saturday: More reviews
Sunday: Posts here on my lost side blog

Anyone else wanna try this impossible challenge with me? Like always all comments are more than welcome. Have a nice day (or night in my case)!

With love,
Lost Viivi

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Fridays: Writing, Saturdays: Reviews
Sundays: Lifestyle, Daily: Photographs

 

Secret Projects and Dreams Come True

Lately, I haven’t been blogging daily like I promised. But this time my reason is really valid. I have been keeping a secret from you. In fact, the last month has gone by me working on this secret project and let me tell you that it has turned me to trainwreck but also like a too excited child. Life is surprising.

So what’s my secret project?

This girl is going to have her own business!

Yeah, I’m not lying. Working as freelancer writer has gone so well recently that I have to start my own company to make everything easier. Sounds crazy. I’m 22 years old lost traveler and writer who still doesn’t know what she wants to do with her life. And soon I’m going to have my own business to maintain.

Is this the worst idea ever? Probably.
Have I ever let bad ideas stop me? No.
So, let’s see how this goes or how I fail!

It’s crazy to think that I’m almost living my dream. Most of the people of my age in Finland are still studying or working somewhere not so glamorous. On the other hand, I’m doing the things I have been dreaming for so long. My days will be full of writing. Mostly my own stories and then blog posts for others. I can work from anywhere. Maybe I will be next month in London, month after that in Tokyo and then just relax at home for a few weeks. Nothing is impossible anymore.

If you have been reading my blogs for some time, you may already know my story. But for others here is a small recap:

When I was still studying for my veterinary university exams, most of the free time I had during my prep school went by reading blogs. It was the first time I realized that some people really lived following their own rules. I wanted to be a nomad who travels around the world with only her laptop. After that year of studying, I ditched my life and went to Japan for three months. 

Returning home from Japan was terrible for my mental health. A few months went by and I started my travel blog to survive the normal life. A few more terrible choices made because of the society’s expectations and escaping to my adventures around the world every possible moment later, I ended up picking my own path. Studying creative writing in open university, writing for others and having too many blogs on my own.

Now I’m here almost three years after my dream started on those dull days studying biology, chemistry, and physics aka all the things I hate.

The fun thing is that I feel like this is only the beginning!

With love,

Viivi Living Her Dream

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Taking myself on Valentine’s date

It was Valentine’s day yesterday and as the forever single lady, there were only a few options for me… On Monday I took myself to nice date consisting of travel to Finland’s capital Helsinki, chai latte, wandering in a bookstore and writing in a museum. And yesterday I went to my friend’s place where we made a chocolate cake and watched Spider-Man: Homecoming movie. If you ask me that’s a lot better than going on a normal date!

I had been stressing Monday for almost a week because I don’t do good with social situations and I was traveling to Helsinki for a business meeting. (It wasn’t really a proper business meeting but it sounds cool so we are calling it that!) I knew beforehand that it was going to be easygoing, fun and not scary at all but that doesn’t help my nerves. Whatever I’m meeting my friends for a movie, new person during traveling or anyone else, there is no stopping my brain from imagining all the things that could go wrong.

Like predicted I survived the morning meeting and had super nice experience that left me smiling. It was just a good reminder that I’m finally going in my life towards something cool. After realizing that I had still like four hours left to spend by myself in Helsinki, it was time for the “go for a date by yourself plan”.

First stop was, of course, idyllic cafe and my normal choice of chai latte. I wrote a little and texted with good friends. Then my plan was to visit bookstores and a few museums. This plan backfired a little because I started from the bookstores. Taking me to any place with books is a bad idea. I ended up buying two writing guidebooks and one “literature dating guide”. All of them really necessary purchases, right?

books

After two hours of staring at cool books and having a hard time not buying everything, I didn’t have time for more than one museum.

I went to modern art museum Kiasma and wandered around there for the remaining time. I stopped for a few times and wrote whatever came to my mind. Museums are the best places for finding interesting character inspiration! I mean seeing three old ladies nordic walking inside the museum is definitely worth of writing. And let’s just not talk about me getting lifelong traumas after I walked into a room just to see a huge screen showing video of someone coloring man’s penis with finger paints…

Sometimes I just don’t understand art!

To end my own date with something great, I bought another chai latte and read my new dating guide while waiting for the bus. Have you ever gone on a date by yourself? Or what would be the perfect date for you?

With love,

Romantic Viivi

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Maybe tomorrow. Next week. Soon.

Days go by too fast and I’m left behind wondering where all the time went. So many things I want to do, so many I just have to get done. My time isn’t enough but that may be because most of my weeks are full of writing, reading and talking with friends. The important things wait in my room half finished and never done. I don’t forget them but my mind just keeps pushing them aside.

I will continue tomorrow. Next week. Soon.

A room full of papers with small scribbles, pens in the colors of the rainbow all around my messy floor and books. Books in straight lines on too many shelves, books under my bed forgotten after falling asleep in between pages and books all over the room just sticking from the most surprising places. Stories that are written by me and by the bestselling authors next to each other taking over my bed and nightstand.

I have been sleeping in my guest bed for months.

There’s always music. Either my big speakers are blasting the latest pop songs or then you can hear secretly listened to music from all around the world through my headphones. Whatever is the situation you can hear some kind of music in my life. When I’m sad, happy, writing, lost, planning my next trips, reading, working, cleaning, desperate or escaping from my own life.

Music is my medicine, inspiration and coping mechanism. 

With love,

Viivi who is prisoner in her life

10 Minutes Thoughts is my blogging series of non-edited writing. I count 10 minutes and write as much as I can and about whatever is in my mind. Sorry for the grammar errors, random thoughts and thing that won’t make sense but this is the real me.

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