Photos of my April

We’re going to start a monthly tradition on this blog! Cool right? It will be posting photo diary of my life during the month. Usually, I will try to time this photo diary for the last Sunday of every month but this time (like you can see) we will start a little late.

Keep in mind that I’m not a professional photographer. In fact, my skills are still close to zero and don’t even mention my editing fails… But this photo diary is also a way to learn new by taking me to the edge of my own comfort zone. Who knows what I will learn after trying to take photos for this diary every month! Let’s start…

Japanese food in Finland

I started my month by traveling to Turku and spending a few days in my friend’s place. We went to eat Japanese meal. I haven’t eaten anything so good for a long time! It made me remember why I’m so eager to return to Japan later this year. Tokyo here I come in a few months.

Blogger in winter

After returning back home from Turku, I only had a few days before leaving for my dreamy holiday in Turkey. Like you can see from the photo above, the weather in Finland wasn’t the ideal at that time but the forecast was promising almost 30 degrees of hotness for my time in Alanya. A perfect escape from cold wintery Finland!

Beach life in Alanya

I have to admit that I wasn’t expecting a lot from Alanya. In Finland, it has kind of trashy reputation and my flight was terrible! (I will be telling that story in my travel blog in two weeks.) Despite my belief that I could just relax on my all-inclusive hotel, I fell for Alanya while driving through it towards my accommodation. It was sunny, it was exotic, it was like a paradise. See the photo of that beach? How could you not like Alanya?

After sunbathing and writing for a few days, I decided to update my Insta after a too long time. Taking photos just isn’t my thing and uploading them to Instagram just stressed me out. I would need someone to edit my photos, come up with clever texts and publish them… Anyone wanna do not paid internship? Just kidding!

Beautiful beach in Turkey

My plan was to just eat, swim in the beautiful pool and read books during this holiday. It was also going to be a writing retreat. All of those plans happened – kind of. I just didn’t take in count the long walking trip to adventure around Alanya. Nothing can keep my inner traveler in check and so even during relaxation holiday like this, I kept hearing the call of the sea, unknown streets and city I was staying for the first time. I walked tens of kilometers but there’re no regrets.

Another thing I did during my two weeks in Alanya was going to see the sunset from the beach. Only one huge street separated my hotel and the waterfront from each other. I would go to eat dinner, then walk to the beach and walk back to have dessert after the sun disappeared behind mountains and water. Usually, I was one of the only people left there. So quiet. Just me writing poems to my notebook or walking in the chilly sea water.

drinks and

Okay, this book has kind of funny story behind it. I wrote a lot during my first week in the hotel. Blogging, stories, and poems. At some point one of the hotel staff members asked me could I maybe tell him what I’m always writing. I have no idea how but he knew that I was blogging. Maybe I’m just so easy to read? Well, after that I found these things from my room. So embarrassing… I mean I know my travel blog is starting to be kind of “a big deal” but still as shy anxious Finn things like this just are too much for me. Could I return to the anonymous blogging? Please?

Blogger writing with food

And here is another photo from my perfect writer lifestyle! Food, good music and writing as long or as much as I want. There wouldn’t be a better way to live your life if you ask my opinion.

blogger drinking Starbucks

Then I returned home feeling unreal. After you have lived the dream for two weeks it feels odd to come back but at the same time I was full of motivation. Being put and doing nothing isn’t my thing. My life has to be moving all the time even if it means me being deadly tired. In fact, from this holiday I found the strenght to start daily blogging again!

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Remember the snowy photo that was taken just before I left for my trip? If not just roll back up and look at it for a minute… I was away for two weeks and this photo is how it was looking in Finland when I returned! Now snow. No cold. No winter anymore. Welcome to Finnish weather… Our seasons change in one night. I’m not even kidding.

pretty sneakers and Finnish nature

That was literally my month. The last week went by trying to set back home and working my ass off. However, I also made plans. These plans make my blogging possible and take me slowly towards my goals. (Who knows what those goals even are…) Then I started this month with a power I have never felt. I’m ready to take control of my own life! It’s the first time for me being this excited about living a normal life without traveling.

How are you? Any big plans to make your spring great? Like always all comments are more than welcome!

With love,
Not So Lost Viivi

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Maybe tomorrow. Next week. Soon.

Days go by too fast and I’m left behind wondering where all the time went. So many things I want to do, so many I just have to get done. My time isn’t enough but that may be because most of my weeks are full of writing, reading and talking with friends. The important things wait in my room half finished and never done. I don’t forget them but my mind just keeps pushing them aside.

I will continue tomorrow. Next week. Soon.

A room full of papers with small scribbles, pens in the colors of the rainbow all around my messy floor and books. Books in straight lines on too many shelves, books under my bed forgotten after falling asleep in between pages and books all over the room just sticking from the most surprising places. Stories that are written by me and by the bestselling authors next to each other taking over my bed and nightstand.

I have been sleeping in my guest bed for months.

There’s always music. Either my big speakers are blasting the latest pop songs or then you can hear secretly listened to music from all around the world through my headphones. Whatever is the situation you can hear some kind of music in my life. When I’m sad, happy, writing, lost, planning my next trips, reading, working, cleaning, desperate or escaping from my own life.

Music is my medicine, inspiration and coping mechanism. 

With love,

Viivi who is prisoner in her life

10 Minutes Thoughts is my blogging series of non-edited writing. I count 10 minutes and write as much as I can and about whatever is in my mind. Sorry for the grammar errors, random thoughts and thing that won’t make sense but this is the real me.

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Tea, thoughts, and snowy nights

It’s snowing hard and I’m staring out into the darkness. I have tried to start this post for last two weeks. It’s hard to write daily.

I’m sitting on a plane flying to London.
I’m staring the sea from my hostel bed.
I’m sipping chai latte in small colorful cafe.
I’m staring out to the airport runway from my hotel room.
I’m trying to write something, anything in my own bed.

None of those sentences started this post. It took me two weeks to find the right words. It’s snowing. I can’t leave my mom’s place and return home because there is too much snow. I wrote a book review on Tuesday and travel post yesterday on Wednesday. I’m on writing daily streak once again. Maybe it will get easier? Probably not.

Lately, I have been listening to too many motivational speeches and spent hours just reading motivational quotes from Pinterest. Something inside of me wants to be that person who wakes up early every morning to do productive activities. I want to write thousands of words every day and finish a novel in 30 days. If there was a way to stop this addiction I have towards daydreaming for hours, you could see me as the first one lining up to test the cure.

I’m lazy.

It’s simple. I’m lazy, unproductive and keen to use a time for unnecessary things.

Maybe it’s not a bad thing? If I just could make money daydreaming. And maybe I can. My mind is writers mind. Whatever I do and where ever I go, my mind finds new story ideas and creates new characters based on the people I meet or see. Daydreaming. My pen has to move faster so I can make this thing work. Memories and thoughts are so quick to disappear. It’s hard to find paper and pen when you could just lay in your bed dreaming of new worlds. But maybe I can?

This post has once again been a mess. That’s who I’m so getting used to it. Random thoughts and quickly changing subjects. This is my blog and I do whatever I want. As long as I think like that, the writing won’t be that hard. My texts, stories and the words I write are made for me, not for anyone else. Let’s hope I will write again tomorrow. Who knows…

With love,

Lost Viivi

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Low point in my life

You know you have a problem when your procrastination has found a totally new level of stupidity. You are leaving away for over a week tomorrow morning but haven’t even packed yet because you’re stuck watching coin pusher and claw machine videos from the internet. Why the heck coin pusher and claw machines of all the videos you could possibly enjoy? It’s so addicting and especially when you should be packing, working and cleaning.

I was doing so good with my daily blogging. For a week and a half. I posted every day and it was so much fun. Then I decided to skip one day. Just one day… That’s not a bad thing, right? But then that one day changed to two days and now almost to three days and it feels again so hard to come up with ideas for posts. Look at me, I’m just complaining. It’s the easiest form of writing: bad feelings and stupid worries.

But at least I am traveling tomorrow. And my week has been full of meeting my best friends. I have written a lot and worked regularly. Everything should be good but it’s just hard to get anything done. It’s almost midnight and I should still do so many things before going to sleep. Maybe just one more claw machine video. Ten more minutes and then I will continue my chores… or not…

But aren’t those videos just so addicting? Now I want to play some arcade games.

With love,

Viivi with problem

I can’t skip a day…

Hello everyone!

I didn’t know what to write today. I’m sleeping on my friend’s floor, the day is almost changing and I have promised to blog every day. It’s easy to write posts when you have one specific subject but this blog is something different. “Write about anything that’s on your mind.” So I was thinking when starting this specific blog. I was sure it would be easy but I was not.

How to come up with blog text idea from scratches? The only solution I know is to just write. Write even if it sounds stupid, and keep writing even if your whole mind is empty. They teach us this technique in university when learning about creative writing. Usually, you are not meant to show these texts for people. You’re writing for yourself. Just for yourself. And now I’m writing for everyone who knows me and for so many people who have no idea who I’m.

Okay, write about anything that’s currently on your mind. What’s in my mind? What am I thinking?

We watched today the last part of the Lord of the Rings. I had almost forgotten how much I love that movie. The plot, the characters and, of course, Legolas. Don’t we all love Legolas? If you don’t, there is something really wrong with your brain (just kidding).

Maybe I should list all the characters I have fallen in love with? That would be a long post. It would start with characters from children’s series. Robin Hood from the Disney movie and Odd from that cartoon series Code Lyoko. There would be Legolas and Draco Malfoy, Han Solo from Star Wars and let’s not forget the endless list of anime and manga characters. I always find that one character and their story more appealing than the movie or book as a whole.

Sorry for this odd, short and random posts. I promised to write daily but I never said these would be quality texts. But at least you will always learn something new about me and get a sneak peek to my brain. Do you ever have a hard time finding subjects for your blog posts? Or have you ever tried this style of just writing about anything and nothing in your mind?

With love,

Nostalgic Viivi

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Finding that blogging motivation

Hello everyone!

My first week of daily blogging is over and it has been amazing. Like truly amazing. Before starting I was thinking that writing daily to my blogs would be one big nightmare. I was expecting it to be super hard, almost impossible and me to miss days right away. That didn’t happen. For the last six days, I have been blogging every day and it has been a bliss.

The motivation and excitement I had during the first year of blogging have returned.

There are so many new ideas, subjects for posts and things I want to share with the world. My mind is full of thoughts that want to get out. Especially my newest blogs and writing them is just so wonderful. No need to stress what others think because I don’t have that many readers on those blogs and the subjects are something I’m passionate about. Writing, books, movies, and music. I could talk about them forever.

After writing every day for the last week, one thought has been constantly in my mind… I want to do this. I want to wake up late and start my day by writing. Then I want to continue by writing some more. Writing blogs, writing stories, writing anything and all the time. Reading books, listening to good music and binge-watching TV series. At some point going out and seeing my friends or sitting alone in small cafes in foreigner cities writing about the people walking past.

I will keep blogging every day next week, week after that, month after that and until the end of this year. This is a promise. Even if I am bad at keeping them, this one won’t break. How do I know?

When I once truly decide something (and when someone tells me that I can’t do it), nothing can stop me. Writing a blog, daily blogging and working as a full-time writer are things like that.

NOTHING CAN STOP ME!

With love

Determined Viivi

Who is Lost Viivi?

This is questions I ask myself too often and some of you may be wondering so let’s make a post of me introducing myself (even if I may be one of the most boring people in the whole wide world…) Feel free to ask any questions at any time in the comments and I will try to answer as well as I can. 🙂

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No, my given name isn’t “Lost Viivi”

Even if it would be funny, my full name isn’t Lost Viivi. Viivi is my first name (not Vivii, not Vivi and not Vivian even if it used to be my nickname). The word “lost” comes from me being always lost. I’m not even kidding. Whatever we are talking about knowing what I want to do with my life or walking around the streets of unknown cities, I always find a way to get lost. And being lost usually ends up me getting in some kind of trouble. For example that one time in Japan when I got so lost that I found myself from an abandoned amusement park.

Sometimes I also use name Viivi Severina but even that isn’t my full given name. Maybe someday I will share my name but right now that’s not important.

Where are you from? 

Finland. It’s a big country with only about 6 million people between Sweden, Norway, and Russia. We don’t have polar bears but Santa Claus lives in our Lapland.

How old are you?

22. Let’s not talk more about this. #agecrisis

What kind of person you are?

Shy, stubborn and hopefully kind. I’m introvert who likes spending time alone and never goes out to party on weekends but at the same time, I can live in full hostels for months surrounded by other people without feeling uncomfortable. I love talking to new people and listening to their stories. My friend calls me “human magnet” because random people tend to talk to me without reason and I meet odd people who want to be friends everywhere I go.

Don’t mistake my shyness and kindness as weakness. I may think others before myself and follow people around but if I have decided something, you can’t change my mind. When people tell me that I can’t do something, I will definitely prove them wrong. Someone once told me that I can’t speak English. People tend to tell me to get a real job. And I have gotten more than enough comments telling me to travel less. Guess what I am doing right now!

Why and when you started blogging?

I have been blogging on and off for years but in the end, my blogs have always died. I started writing in English about two years ago on my travel blog and I never stopped for everyone’s surprise. This year I decided to start daily blogging because last autumn I realized that writing is my thing.

The reason I started blogging in English isn’t so simple. My mind was in dark place after I had returned home from three months long trip to Japan. I believed that I was going to study something I hated for the next six years without a way out. Writing has always been a coping mechanism for me, writing a blog was an easy way to forget everything else.

How many blogs do you have?

Too many. Right now I have 5 blogs and 1 blog I use to share my daily posts from all these sites.

Travel blogLost side blog
Photography blog
Review blogWriter’s blog
Daily posts

Do you study, work or what do you do?

I think this subject and story needs its own post but shortly said I work as a writer who also studies. Last autumn I realized that I would, in theory, live by doing freelancer writing (for example writing blog posts for companies) and doing translations. In addition to doing this, I am studying two university degrees at the same time: creative writing and business. I study online so I can spend about half of my time traveling.

What is your biggest dream?

I have finally admitted to myself that I want to be an author. I want to write books. I have no idea if that will be possible (probably not in English because my language skills still suck). If I can’t be an author, I dream of living as someone who can write every day, live every month in a different city and find happiness. I want to leave my mark on this world.

What kind of family do you have?

Crazy, funny, tiring and just impossible to deal with. I probably shouldn’t write about my family because they know about my blogs but I doubt they would have the patience to read anything I write. I have two younger siblings so I’m the oldest and the wisest and the best (at least if you ask from me). My parents are divorced and I am currently living in my grandpa’s basement.

Favorite movies, TV series, books, music, etc.?

My favorites are changing all the time but I will publish twice a week to my review blog about these themes so read more from there. I like almost everything except horror. Crime-themed movies and books are my favorites. I listen all kind of music as long as I can listen to it all the time. My family and friends know me as the one who listens to Asian bands. Right now I am totally hooked on reading writing guidebooks but also my taste with books is almost endless.

If I had to name some of my favorites, I would probably mention these ones:

Movies: Now You See Me, Star Wars
TV series: Criminal Minds, Leverage
Books: Wild Mind: Living the Writer’s Life by Natalie Goldberg
Bands/Musicians: BTS, Nu’est, One Ok Rock, Sanni, Haloo Helsinki, NF

What are the plans for this blog?

I will continue writing whatever I want and how often I want. Now I am trying to make that daily blogging challenge happen so except posts in this random side blog every Tuesdays, Thursdays, and Sundays. Mostly the posts will be about my life and thoughts. In addition maybe some general “lifestyle” posts like sharing cool videos, tips, and lists of anything. If I can open up enough maybe some fangirling over books, bands, and movies. Who knows where this year will take us…

Feel free to follow me on my social media. I am super inactive on Instagram because I only want to share colorful photos. My Twitter is full of random rambling, photos of food, shared travel themed links and updates of my newest posts. Follow everything at your own risk… I always appreciate comments so ask anything or let’s have a conversation on Twitter. I’m shy but I won’t bite! 🙂

With love,

Lost Viivi

 

Mission Impossible: Daily Blogging

The year 2018 has started and I’m ready to fail in my impossible mission for a lazy person like me. Yesterday was the first day of my daily blogging for one year challenge. I have shared this with a few friends and Twitter. Most people have wished me good luck, others called me crazy. My own mind is mostly just screaming out of fear, stress, and excitement. I love blogging so why shouldn’t I do it a daily thing?

This is probably a stupid idea and my history as a blogger has more than enough proof. I have had several blogs but all of them have died after the first year. Last year I promised to write twice a week and then after failing that once a week. Do I even need to admit that I failed in that too? Now my mind just decides that writing once a day is a perfect plan. Crazy, huh?

Yesterday I wrote the first post on my brand new review blog. It’s one of the things I am most amazed about. So easy to just write when you have no one who wants to read. No matter what you say or if the language sucks. There will be only a few people reading and if they don’t like it, they will just skip your blog. I haven’t felt like that for a long time. Not after I told my family about my travel blog and realized that it has over a thousand readers. Now I have close to three thousand people following my blog and writing anything feels impossible.

I am scared of failing.

Does anyone know how to get over these fears? Maybe the only way is to just keep writing. Just keep swimming, just keep swimming. (I may have watched Finding Dory a few days ago…) Last autumn my university creative writing teacher got me hooked on reading writing guidebooks. That’s probably the biggest reason why this crazy idea of daily blogging came into my mind. There is one theme that keeps repeating itself in these books: Just write every day without caring for your inner voice telling that it’s a bad idea. 

Okay, no book says it like that. It’s always told more poetically and with fewer awkward words between. But the idea is same. If you keep writing consistently, it gets easier. Or well not easier but doing it everyday changes to routine and routine is often easy despite the task being hard.

I’m rambling while writing, aren’t I? You better get used to it. Writing every day also means writing without editing. Some people would accuse me of favoring quantity over quality. During all this creative writing I have studied during the last four months, I have learned to approach my blogging from a new point of view. The more you write the better you get at it. Later on, we can see if that’s a good thing.

If you are new here, welcome. I’m Viivi and I’m one big mess who owns too many blogs for her own good. Right now, I also try to live my dream life and that has killed my sense of reality. Feel free to follow this blog so you can read more odd posts or see my daily posts in LostViivi.com

What are your plans for the year 2018? Anything as crazy as mine?

With love,

Viivi with a plan (aka a bad idea)

I can’t sleep

For some reason, I have had super long jetlag after returning from my New York, Iceland and Sweden trip. I am sleepy at 5pm, my eyes won’t stay open at 8pm and then when I try to sleep I just can’t fall asleep. Hours of rolling around in my bed. And it gets even worse when I wake up at 5am after sleeping only for about 5 hours. I can’t fall asleep again. It’s just impossible.

What did I do to deserve this torture?

I have always seen a lot of dreams that I remember well but for these few nights, it has gotten even worse. I wake up feeling hazy. What is true and what is not? It would be easier if my dreams didn’t make sense. Can I get flying, dragons and falling in love with someone handsome and famous? Watching my family fighting, friends disappearing and my dreams getting crushed night after night gets boring quickly.

It hasn’t even been a week and the nights are still driving me crazy. I didn’t have any problems when I returned from Japan so why am I struggling so much right now?

With love,

Sleep derivated Viivi

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True raw emotions.

Today I want to speak about suicide. Yesterday someone who I have never met and someone who I don’t even know killed himself. I have never even talked to this person and he had no idea that I even existed but still, this death has impacted me. What else would you except when he impacted my life while still living?

Today I want to speak about suicide but I won’t. I don’t think I can. And that’s why I will tell you a small story.

This is a story of young Viivi who was always lost in her life and who didn’t feel like she belonged. This is a story of someone who found peace and way to continue from listening to music. And then when time went by this changes to a story of her finding a best friend through this strange world of listening to music from bands that you can’t even understand.

It starts at primary school. I can’t remember how. I see a video of band singing language I can’t understand and they are dancing almost too perfectly. It’s odd and new but still enchanting. Weeks, months and years go by me listening to music by myself. At some point, it’s not just the music and amazing videos. I start to watch reality shows, dramas and I remember all members of these bands by name.

I still have no idea what they are saying but I don’t care. I don’t need to understand to enjoy the music.

Then I go to high school and I meet someone who shares my interest. We become friends, travel to concerts, laugh for the silly reality shows and before anything else enjoy the music. It’s a magical time of my life. It’s so easy to be happy. When your own life doesn’t feel right, you can just make yourself to forget everything. Music takes all your worries away and these silly but talented people performing it can always bring a smile to your face.

Years start running faster and my life is changing. I find something else. Traveling, writing blogs and living my life. There is no time for everything but I never forget. When I open Spotify I still listen to kpop more often than not. Even one photo or one memory from the time of my life can make me delighted. It was my youth and it’s still my future. You never truly get over the things you have once loved and today I can see it so clearly.

Yesterday I was messaging with my friend totally normally and then out of nowhere, she asked me did I know why the internet was full of sad Jonghyun. I didn’t. It took a while and then she told me that Jjong had committed suicide. It didn’t sink in first. I haven’t been actively following what happens with Shinee for a long time but they are still one of the bands closest to my heart. I have cried, I have laughed, I have lived listening to their songs.

Shinee was one of the first bands I fell in love with. And no I don’t speak about kpop. I speak about bands generally in all music categories. There are about million memories I could share now because my mind is right now full of them.

Being fifteen and laughing at Amigo because in Finnish the song sounds like they are singing over and over again that they want to fuck. Dancing and singing RingDingDong alone in my room. Being addicted to so many of their songs that it is not even funny. Crying while to The Reason even if I only could understand the words from translations. Still remembering the words of Sherlock even if it has been years.

And lastly listening to Tell Me What To Do over and over again just last week in New York when I was feeling a little bit homesick. Even now it’s kpop and music that makes me survive the hardest parts of my life. Even now after years, it’s Shinee. It will always be Shinee.

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