Low point in my life

You know you have a problem when your procrastination has found a totally new level of stupidity. You are leaving away for over a week tomorrow morning but haven’t even packed yet because you’re stuck watching coin pusher and claw machine videos from the internet. Why the heck coin pusher and claw machines of all the videos you could possibly enjoy? It’s so addicting and especially when you should be packing, working and cleaning.

I was doing so good with my daily blogging. For a week and a half. I posted every day and it was so much fun. Then I decided to skip one day. Just one day… That’s not a bad thing, right? But then that one day changed to two days and now almost to three days and it feels again so hard to come up with ideas for posts. Look at me, I’m just complaining. It’s the easiest form of writing: bad feelings and stupid worries.

But at least I am traveling tomorrow. And my week has been full of meeting my best friends. I have written a lot and worked regularly. Everything should be good but it’s just hard to get anything done. It’s almost midnight and I should still do so many things before going to sleep. Maybe just one more claw machine video. Ten more minutes and then I will continue my chores… or not…

But aren’t those videos just so addicting? Now I want to play some arcade games.

With love,

Viivi with problem

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2018, Year of Blogging

2018 is almost here. In my travel blog’s last post I mentioned that at the start of the year 2017 I promised myself it would be my year of traveling. Surprisingly, it was a quite easy promise to keep. Now it’s time to make my New Year’s resolution for 2018. Wanna know what I have decided? Or maybe the title of this post already gave it away.

The year 2018 is going to be my year of blogging.

If you are an avid reader of my blogs, you know that I am a blogging addict. It all started with my travel blog. Then I created photography blog to learn photo editing. After that, this side blog was born. And I have been talking about starting review blog for forever (I even have like 5 post written for it). In addition to all these, I have wanted to start writing a blog about my adventures as an almost full-time writer for some time now.

That makes 3 blogs and 2 blogs I would like to start at the beginning of 2018. Like I said… I am an addict.

During my travel year 2017, blogging became harder. I have had blogs before but I have never written them longer than for a year. The oldest of my blogs, Go Travel Global, will be two years next February. I have never gotten this far so I have no idea if the writing will get easier. That’s what I want to believe and so 2018 will be dedicated to blogging.

I know that I have told these plans to you earlier. “I will start writing twice a week. No more blogging breaks. Hey, I am back!” When we talk about schedule, I’m the worst. However, this time I have made schedule once again and my plan is to make this really happen. The secret? I started reading writing guidebooks a few months back and all of the books have one staying theme: You have to keep doing it and think it as a job or you won’t succeed. I am going to be blogging more than ever just you wait!

So, what is my ambitious plan?

Mondays: I will publish review post on Reviews From Idiot

Wednesdays: Wanderlust Wednesdays are back! Post every week in Go Travel Global

Fridays: Blog post about living as a writer in my writer’s blog Lost Writer Viivi

Rest of the days I will be posting on this blog. That’s a lot of blogging, right? In fact, if you did read that carefully it means blogging every day of the week for whole year. 

Don’t look me whit those judging eyes! You can think that I will get bored after a few days if you want. When I once decide to really do something there is no stopping me! Lately, I have been thinking a lot and come to the decision that even more than traveling I want to do blogging and writing. My content may not be perfect yet but I think my English skills and writing skills in general get better every time I write something.

Many people do daily vlogging nowadays so can we please start a new trend of daily blogging?

This seems crazy but hey that’s who I am!

Are you ready to start this crazy year with me?

With love,

Viivi Who Fell For Blogging…

Always either lost or sick

I am sick. I should be writing my travel blog. But for some reason I just can’t do anything. I don’t feel like doing anything. I have been sleeping for hours. Last night I got over 13 hours of sleep so even if my body wants to rest my mind just keeps running wild. This is quite normal. One of my best friends put it well a while back: I am always either sick or lost. 

So, here I am writing like always when my mind can’t keep its calm or when it’s hard to fall asleep. Have you ever been like this? Too tired to do anything but too awake to fall asleep. Today I had short conversation with another of my friends of why I am always sick. He didn’t know about it. We have only known for a year and that time I have been surprisingly well. It brought some memories back to me.

My body gets sick easily and I think that I have problems with containing stress. Because of that I am sick all the time. But that’s not all. There has been times in my life when I used to be sick for months in row. And I am not talking about just some “oh I have cough” sickness. No, I have been sleeping for almost month like sleeping beauty because I just can’t stand up. Can’t remember a much from those times. It’s all just a blur.

I am used to being sick. In fact sometimes I even enjoy it. Well, not that feeling awful and sneezing all the time part but the part where I can download my own batteries by just relaxing. As person I am someone who can’t never really just be and do nothing. My mind is always full of things I haven’t done and at the same time I am always stressing about something. But then I fall sick and there is good reason to just be.

So, maybe me being often sick has something to do with my body trying to take break? Or my mind?

I don’t really know where I was going with this but hey I am sick so I can write whatever I want… (Like I didn’t usually just ponder random thoughts here!) Maybe it’s time for me to stop this odd post. Let’s blame my feverish brains, okay?

With love,

Dead Viivi

Scared of Writing

I have no idea what to write.

I am surprised that I have been writing my travel blog for year and half. Usually my blogging has stopped after the first few months. Now I have been writing bravely even when it has been tiring. And then these last two months happened. I have zero inspiration to write blog. I mean I truly want to and I have ideas but for some reason I just can’t find the strenght to start.

Writing is hard and complicated.

Having readers makes it easier but still so impossible at times. I feel like my English sucks. My posts are just too long and boring. I am writing things that no one wants to read. Why can’t it just be easy? Why I have to care so much?

I have so many stories I want to share with people who for some reason read my texts. I never wrote about my Gdansk or Brighton adventures. Both of those trips have many funny stories I want to tell. In Gdansk I met crazy umbrella man who made me hate gender stereotypes and in Brighton I fell all over again for solo travel. So many stories, so little inspiration.

Maybe that’s why I started writing for this blog again. I for some reason lost all my readers here when playing with hosting services and that may have been the best thing ever. About 20 readers. It feels like a freedom again. Maybe this will help me to find that feeling of writing without caring of anything.

It’s kind of funny that I am so stressed out of people reading my texts. Usually I am that person who cares of nothing. I travel even if my friends and family don’t think it is a good idea. I dress like I want and don’t use make-up just because it’s too tiring. It’s my life and I will do what I want. But this writing thing has always been my weak spot. I love it too much so any bad comment makes me panic. What if I am not good enough? What if this thing I love more than anything (even more than travel) won’t work out?

I have always been good at writing. Not so much in English but in Finnish. People have always praised my writings. During school years I always got full score from creative writing assignments. I loved writing and others loved reading my texts.

Right now I can easily say that writing is my thing and that I am good at it. One year ago the situation was totally different. If someone praised my writing, I thought they were just lying. When someone asked what I can do well, I always thought about writing but never said it out loud. I was ashamed. I still am sometimes but it is getting easier. There is so many people who are better than I at this creative writing thing so how could I ever be good enough in it.

I can now admit that writing is my thing and that I can’t do anything else with my life if I truly want to be happy. And that’s why writing is so scary. If I fail what is left of me? If writing doesn’t work out what can I do?

So, here I am stuck with these feelings. I have no idea how to get over them and maybe there is no other way than just keep writing.

With love,

Scaredy-Cat Viivi

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When You Have Too Many Blogs…

So, I have decided to do some more changes with my blogs and start concentrating to them more. This autumn I will start studying creative writing in remote university so I will have a lot of time to just write around the clock everyday of the week. That made me think, why not use some of that time for blogging?

You may realize that I changed the domain of this blog. Yes, even if I changed it to for new hosting a few weeks ago. I have decided that my Lost Viivi site and domain will be a little bit like my home page. I will share there links to all of my blogs and maybe sometimes share some extra news from my life. Who knows.

My travel blog aka my main blog Go Travel Global will continue as it is. Except that I will first return to posting once a week and after I find the right writing rhythm add that second day back. I have too many travel stories I want to write currently but for some reason I have no motivation of writing them.

Then there is my Go Travel Photo blog.  I have been thinking new name for it but at least yet I haven’t come up with any good enough alternatives. I want to share more of my photos there. At least a few times per week. If I have time even more. The original goal was to share photo every day but I don’t think that will be possible any time soon.

Today I changed name of this blog from Lost Viivi to Lost Side Blog. I have been mainly sharing blogging awards my travel blog gets here but now I want to share something more. Small stories from my life, random thoughts, maybe even poems or novels I write. I won’t set schedule for myself but rather keep this blog as easy to write as possible. If I have something in my mind it will appear here.

And lastly I may have been planning of making one more blog. (I know, I know, I already have too many blogs okay…) It was kind of my friend’s idea. We used to write Asian drama and music reviews together when we met. I was complaining that I need new hobby and she suggested starting reviewing again. This time I would review a little bit of everything and not just Asian dramas. I still love them but my obsession isn’t as huge anymore.

Would anyone be interested in reading music, movie, tv series and book reviews? Well, I don’t even know why I ask because whatever your answer is I will still probably do it…

Am I the only one with problem of having too many blogs at the same time? I think that I am blog addict… If you have many blogs feel free to comment them below because I would love to have some new bloggers to follow.

Thanks for reading and welcome to my blog if you are new. Check out also my  InstagramFacebook and Twitter!
With love,

Totally Lost Viivi

Problems with everything

Problems With Studying and Parents

 

Does anyone know if there is way to make my self hosted wordpress.org site to appear in the wordpress.com reader? I am super happy that I decided to first try out this with my side blog and not with my real blog… This is hard!

And if you are interested behind that link you can find my newest diary post. Thanks!

With love,

Viivi

My week of missing traveling

Hello once again everyone! I hope you have had another amazing week. I – like the title says – missed traveling and was busy getting ready for my summer job starting. So normal week that it is quite hard to even describe.

If we start from the Monday, my yearning for traveling started right away. I have never taken anyone else to the airport. It has always been me who has left. However this Monday I drove my little sister (okay, she is already adult but for me she is forever my little sister…) to the airport and left her there. She is going for month long interail around Europe. Yes, I am totally jealous! I want to travel even if I just returned from a few weeks long trip. But now I have work to do for June and July and only after that I have planned Rome trip with my mom.

But really taking someone else to the airport is so odd feeling. I am used to seeing airports as places for me to escape to somewhere magical. Airports mean adventure. But now I just drove in front of it. Said goodbyes for my sister and drove back home watching airplanes taking of in my rear view mirror. I wasn’t in one of those planes and it hurts. My whole week went missing traveling and feeling like I was in wrong place. I should have been in some exotic country, not in cold boring Finland. Now my work has started and fortunately those feelings aren’t as vivid anymore. I love my job and this summer is going to be amazing.

During the rest of the week I met friends, ate too much ice cream and just enjoyed the last days of my summer holiday. I may have watched almost whole season of Miss Fisher’s Murder Mysteries but I am not going to admit anything. In addition to just chilling and going to flea market shopping with friends, I was as dog sitter for my family’s dog and did long walks around the nearby forest.

After week of relaxing my weekend was full of activities. First I was looking after my friends dog while she was at work (that took all Saturday morning and afternoon). Right after she got her dog I left with my mother to my cousin’s graduation party. It was, well, everything I was waiting for. It was like parties with my family always goes. Fun, chaotic and a lot of arguing. Fortunately, good food makes everything better.

Usually people keep asking about my future plans but surprisingly this time there was almost no talking about my wrong university decisions. My grandpa is giving up with the hope of me going to Estonia to study veterinary. Even if I survived school talks someone almost revealed my travel blog to my grandpa. Last time he knew that I wrote blog it ended up printed to our family book. This time I rather keep it just in internet…

Then on Sunday I had to wake up too early for my own good and drive to work. And here I am now, just working working working. I will be living the whole summer on our cottage and enjoying Finnish summer life. What would be better way to spend your holiday?

Song Of The Week

Noah Curys – I’m Stuck

I hope you are having an amazing day!

Lost Viivi

More Travel Planning…

Last week I was so excited about my new camera that I totally forgot to write about this trip I planned earlier that week. So, surprise! I am right now writing this weekly wrap-up in plane flying towards Bremen. If you read my travel blog, you probably already knew that but here I am once again traveling towards big adventure.

So last week went by getting ready for my trip and having week full of Eurovision. Firstly about this travel plan. I will be traveling the next two weeks. First to Bremen and then after a few days to London and Brighton. You may be surprised but I studied German for seven years. (I can’t say anything…) So, I have wanted to visit there almost half of my life. I went once to Berlin but we only stayed for one day and only attended to concert.

Brighton has also been on my bucket list forever. I don’t even remember when and from where I first heard about this place but I knew immediately that this city was meant for me. I don’t know if any of you has ever felt it but for me some cities just awake feeling of belonging. Brighton is definitely one of those places.

It was kind if hard to get ready for my trip because at the same time we had crazy Eurovision week. Finland didn’t get in the finals (this is third time in the row but let’s not talk about that…). However, there was some amazing performances this year. That opera pop man was one of my favorites. And as person who loves music mixing different genres to one big mess rapping yodeling just stole my heart.

My opinion of the winner? Well, it wasn’t bad and he doesn’t deserve the hate he gets. I just didn’t like the song and singer’s style personally. Also, I am so happy about Portugal’s win! (And not only because I had been planning to travel to see the Eurovision next year with my friend.) Finland has won once with Lordi so I am always happy for other countries winning for the first time.

Watching Eurovision with family is like tradition and even if I have many friends who don’t care at all what happens in this music competition my family has always been kind of Eurovision freaks. (Not severely but we watch all the semis and final and everything else concerning Eurovision.)

I have nothing else. My week was super boring so nothing more to share. Next Monday will be more interesting and full of pretty travel photos. If I just learn to use my lovely new camera before that… I am hopeless with using it…

With love,

Viivi Severina

 

Camera shopping and travel planning

I think this must be my personal record! Third week in a row I am here writing my weekly wrap-up post. Even if it is already Tuesday… I don’t know if anyone even wants to read boring stuff like this but hey I have never let it stop me.

Last week was quite boring one for me. It was finally warm here in Finland so I ate too much ice cream and spent days outside enjoying the sun. I also had time to see a lot of friends, do some big life decisions that have been on my mind for a while and buy new camera. What else would one wish from the first week of May?

Week 19 And Summer Is In Finland!

When the week started I also had finally returned back to live in my childhood town. Because I don’t have proper place anywhere I kept going between my mom’s, dad’s and grandpa’s places. I had planned doing some cleaning but like usually that never happened. All my things are still totally in chaos after the move. Maybe I will get to the cleaning this week… Probably not.

Because I never cleaned I had a lot of time to see my friends. I visited one of my best friends in her work. And helped taking care of goats after a long time. If you didn’t know, I am in theory professional animal career. I studied it for three years. It felt good to work with animals after a long time.

I also went to buy camera for me with my another friend. I have been writing my travel blog for a little over year but I have never owned a camera. I have always been borrowing one from my other family members and most of the photos in my blog are taken with phone. But now I own Sony a5100 camera and I am totally in love!

We went to look for the camera on Saturday and I first didn’t mean to even buy it any time soon. Still, I almost bought it right there and then. We visited all three places selling cameras near my home. I found the one I want from the first shop but we still visited other places after returning there. I decided not to buy the camera because my mum was suggesting another one for me.

I returned home and started to regret my decision not to buy it. On Sunday I went back right after the opening time because I had already fallen in love. However my camera bying didn’t go as well as planned. I totally blame the handsome employee who sold it for me.

finnish_forest
Fortunately, Finland has many good places to practice photography without anyone seeing me embarrass myself!

Story Of Unfortunate Camera Buying Trip

I came to the shop but there was no employees on the camera section. I of course already knew what camera I wanted but I still needed to know more about the insurance that would cost about 80€ more. After studying business for a year the one thing I had learned was to always research everything thoroughly before giving away your money.

I was walking around waiting for employee who would help me when this dreamy looking man came to me. Why the heck do I always encounter the good looking sellers? It would be a lot easier to talk with old ugly looking man than model-like man (okay, model-like is exaggeration but I have always had thing for pretty eyes and charming smile). At least this time it wasn’t me who failed in the end…

After I told him that I needed help with camera I got uncertain answer that he may not be the best person to help me but let’s try. I thought that it would be okay because I had already decided the camera I wanted. Waiting for someone who knew more would have been good idea. I would have saved a lot of time.

I even pitied the boy after asking too many questions about the insurance and then demanding to see the official terms and conditions. He had to google them for me and at this point I should have realized that he had no idea what he was doing. But hey, you can’t be angry for pretty eyes.

I left the store with my new camera and sill dazed by that dreamy boy only to realize at home that he had given me the wrong camera. Great. That’s all I could think about when driving back to the store to get my lovely black Sony a5100. It wasn’t that much of bother and I returned back to home happily.

When opening my camera later at that night and starting to use it I realized yet another thing. I needed memory card and the boy had not sold me one and hadn’t even mentioned that I needed one. This is probably clear for all camera owners but keep in mind that this really is my first own camera. At this point I may have been cursing the cute eyed boy but at least I got my lovely camera and memory card to use it in the end…

 

Song Of The Week

Norma John – Blackbird

It is finally time for Eurovision Song Contest! Fun fact: I am big fan and every year watching Eurovision is big thing in my family. Finland’s song didn’t charm at first but it has now found its place on my heart (I feel like this happens every year…) I don’t know if they have potential to win but hey at least for once we don’t have to be embarrassed. Vote for Finland! Or at least listen the song.

 

I hope you are having an amazing day.
With love,

Viivi Severina

 

And Winter Is Back…

I kept my promise and here is another weekly wrap-up post. Maybe this will be really a thing here in my blog? Because my holiday started last week I will have more time to write and blog. I will keep trying to write once a week in this blog but who knows what will happen. At least now I will start updating two times a week, like I have meant to do, in my TRAVEL BLOG.

 

Snowy Week Number 18…

If I had to describe my week with one word it would be SNOW… Most of other Finns probably agree with me. Even in my lovely home country Finland it should be spring and sunny at this time of the year. Right now when I am writing this (disclaimer: I wrote this on Sunday and forgot to publish…) it looks like the photo underneath:

finland_in_may

Who allowed this winter to return? Unfortunately for me, I had to drive with summer tires for hours when I moved back to my mom’s place. Like I mentioned above my school ended and summer holiday began so it was time to move out of my student city. Feels so odd because I lived there for a year and I don’t know if I will ever return.

While driving car full of stuff I took with me while moving I saw something super Finnish and funny. It was snowing but all ice cream kiosks were open. I mean, why not? When summer once starts in Finland we are not giving up. Not even if it means lining up for ice cream in snowfall and freezing weather!

Of course I stopped for ice cream during my drive like a many other people. There I stood in snowfall waiting for my turn to buy ice cream. I had my sneakers on and the rest of my way I had to suffer with wet shoes. But totally worth it! I opened the ice cream season and now I can say that it is officially summer.

After returning back to home I didn’t do a much, just some baking and resting after hard moving week. This resting included watching too much Netflix. Right now I am totally hooked with series like Brooklyn Nine-Nine and White Collar. My love for crime series is just endless and these two series have plots/style out of the ordinary detective series.

My long Netflix marathons aren’t so good thing because I have soon entrance exams to university. I have still no idea what I want to do so I don’t even know what to study. I have kind of fallen in love with translation jobs so maybe I will try to study English? If I ever get in because my language skills are the worst…

 

Song Of The Week:

Julia Brennan – Inner Demons

This week I have been totally hooked to this song. Julia is so pretty, her voice AMAZING and that video just so aesthetic. I would also totally stole those black jeans if I had a change…

 

So, how is your week going? Any fun stories? Or maybe new music for me to listen? Like always all comments are welcome.

With love,

Viivi Severina