Photos of my April

We’re going to start a monthly tradition on this blog! Cool right? It will be posting photo diary of my life during the month. Usually, I will try to time this photo diary for the last Sunday of every month but this time (like you can see) we will start a little late.

Keep in mind that I’m not a professional photographer. In fact, my skills are still close to zero and don’t even mention my editing fails… But this photo diary is also a way to learn new by taking me to the edge of my own comfort zone. Who knows what I will learn after trying to take photos for this diary every month! Let’s start…

Japanese food in Finland

I started my month by traveling to Turku and spending a few days in my friend’s place. We went to eat Japanese meal. I haven’t eaten anything so good for a long time! It made me remember why I’m so eager to return to Japan later this year. Tokyo here I come in a few months.

Blogger in winter

After returning back home from Turku, I only had a few days before leaving for my dreamy holiday in Turkey. Like you can see from the photo above, the weather in Finland wasn’t the ideal at that time but the forecast was promising almost 30 degrees of hotness for my time in Alanya. A perfect escape from cold wintery Finland!

Beach life in Alanya

I have to admit that I wasn’t expecting a lot from Alanya. In Finland, it has kind of trashy reputation and my flight was terrible! (I will be telling that story in my travel blog in two weeks.) Despite my belief that I could just relax on my all-inclusive hotel, I fell for Alanya while driving through it towards my accommodation. It was sunny, it was exotic, it was like a paradise. See the photo of that beach? How could you not like Alanya?

After sunbathing and writing for a few days, I decided to update my Insta after a too long time. Taking photos just isn’t my thing and uploading them to Instagram just stressed me out. I would need someone to edit my photos, come up with clever texts and publish them… Anyone wanna do not paid internship? Just kidding!

Beautiful beach in Turkey

My plan was to just eat, swim in the beautiful pool and read books during this holiday. It was also going to be a writing retreat. All of those plans happened – kind of. I just didn’t take in count the long walking trip to adventure around Alanya. Nothing can keep my inner traveler in check and so even during relaxation holiday like this, I kept hearing the call of the sea, unknown streets and city I was staying for the first time. I walked tens of kilometers but there’re no regrets.

Another thing I did during my two weeks in Alanya was going to see the sunset from the beach. Only one huge street separated my hotel and the waterfront from each other. I would go to eat dinner, then walk to the beach and walk back to have dessert after the sun disappeared behind mountains and water. Usually, I was one of the only people left there. So quiet. Just me writing poems to my notebook or walking in the chilly sea water.

drinks and

Okay, this book has kind of funny story behind it. I wrote a lot during my first week in the hotel. Blogging, stories, and poems. At some point one of the hotel staff members asked me could I maybe tell him what I’m always writing. I have no idea how but he knew that I was blogging. Maybe I’m just so easy to read? Well, after that I found these things from my room. So embarrassing… I mean I know my travel blog is starting to be kind of “a big deal” but still as shy anxious Finn things like this just are too much for me. Could I return to the anonymous blogging? Please?

Blogger writing with food

And here is another photo from my perfect writer lifestyle! Food, good music and writing as long or as much as I want. There wouldn’t be a better way to live your life if you ask my opinion.

blogger drinking Starbucks

Then I returned home feeling unreal. After you have lived the dream for two weeks it feels odd to come back but at the same time I was full of motivation. Being put and doing nothing isn’t my thing. My life has to be moving all the time even if it means me being deadly tired. In fact, from this holiday I found the strenght to start daily blogging again!

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Remember the snowy photo that was taken just before I left for my trip? If not just roll back up and look at it for a minute… I was away for two weeks and this photo is how it was looking in Finland when I returned! Now snow. No cold. No winter anymore. Welcome to Finnish weather… Our seasons change in one night. I’m not even kidding.

pretty sneakers and Finnish nature

That was literally my month. The last week went by trying to set back home and working my ass off. However, I also made plans. These plans make my blogging possible and take me slowly towards my goals. (Who knows what those goals even are…) Then I started this month with a power I have never felt. I’m ready to take control of my own life! It’s the first time for me being this excited about living a normal life without traveling.

How are you? Any big plans to make your spring great? Like always all comments are more than welcome!

With love,
Not So Lost Viivi

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Maybe tomorrow. Next week. Soon.

Days go by too fast and I’m left behind wondering where all the time went. So many things I want to do, so many I just have to get done. My time isn’t enough but that may be because most of my weeks are full of writing, reading and talking with friends. The important things wait in my room half finished and never done. I don’t forget them but my mind just keeps pushing them aside.

I will continue tomorrow. Next week. Soon.

A room full of papers with small scribbles, pens in the colors of the rainbow all around my messy floor and books. Books in straight lines on too many shelves, books under my bed forgotten after falling asleep in between pages and books all over the room just sticking from the most surprising places. Stories that are written by me and by the bestselling authors next to each other taking over my bed and nightstand.

I have been sleeping in my guest bed for months.

There’s always music. Either my big speakers are blasting the latest pop songs or then you can hear secretly listened to music from all around the world through my headphones. Whatever is the situation you can hear some kind of music in my life. When I’m sad, happy, writing, lost, planning my next trips, reading, working, cleaning, desperate or escaping from my own life.

Music is my medicine, inspiration and coping mechanism. 

With love,

Viivi who is prisoner in her life

10 Minutes Thoughts is my blogging series of non-edited writing. I count 10 minutes and write as much as I can and about whatever is in my mind. Sorry for the grammar errors, random thoughts and thing that won’t make sense but this is the real me.

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Tea, thoughts, and snowy nights

It’s snowing hard and I’m staring out into the darkness. I have tried to start this post for last two weeks. It’s hard to write daily.

I’m sitting on a plane flying to London.
I’m staring the sea from my hostel bed.
I’m sipping chai latte in small colorful cafe.
I’m staring out to the airport runway from my hotel room.
I’m trying to write something, anything in my own bed.

None of those sentences started this post. It took me two weeks to find the right words. It’s snowing. I can’t leave my mom’s place and return home because there is too much snow. I wrote a book review on Tuesday and travel post yesterday on Wednesday. I’m on writing daily streak once again. Maybe it will get easier? Probably not.

Lately, I have been listening to too many motivational speeches and spent hours just reading motivational quotes from Pinterest. Something inside of me wants to be that person who wakes up early every morning to do productive activities. I want to write thousands of words every day and finish a novel in 30 days. If there was a way to stop this addiction I have towards daydreaming for hours, you could see me as the first one lining up to test the cure.

I’m lazy.

It’s simple. I’m lazy, unproductive and keen to use a time for unnecessary things.

Maybe it’s not a bad thing? If I just could make money daydreaming. And maybe I can. My mind is writers mind. Whatever I do and where ever I go, my mind finds new story ideas and creates new characters based on the people I meet or see. Daydreaming. My pen has to move faster so I can make this thing work. Memories and thoughts are so quick to disappear. It’s hard to find paper and pen when you could just lay in your bed dreaming of new worlds. But maybe I can?

This post has once again been a mess. That’s who I’m so getting used to it. Random thoughts and quickly changing subjects. This is my blog and I do whatever I want. As long as I think like that, the writing won’t be that hard. My texts, stories and the words I write are made for me, not for anyone else. Let’s hope I will write again tomorrow. Who knows…

With love,

Lost Viivi

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I can’t skip a day…

Hello everyone!

I didn’t know what to write today. I’m sleeping on my friend’s floor, the day is almost changing and I have promised to blog every day. It’s easy to write posts when you have one specific subject but this blog is something different. “Write about anything that’s on your mind.” So I was thinking when starting this specific blog. I was sure it would be easy but I was not.

How to come up with blog text idea from scratches? The only solution I know is to just write. Write even if it sounds stupid, and keep writing even if your whole mind is empty. They teach us this technique in university when learning about creative writing. Usually, you are not meant to show these texts for people. You’re writing for yourself. Just for yourself. And now I’m writing for everyone who knows me and for so many people who have no idea who I’m.

Okay, write about anything that’s currently on your mind. What’s in my mind? What am I thinking?

We watched today the last part of the Lord of the Rings. I had almost forgotten how much I love that movie. The plot, the characters and, of course, Legolas. Don’t we all love Legolas? If you don’t, there is something really wrong with your brain (just kidding).

Maybe I should list all the characters I have fallen in love with? That would be a long post. It would start with characters from children’s series. Robin Hood from the Disney movie and Odd from that cartoon series Code Lyoko. There would be Legolas and Draco Malfoy, Han Solo from Star Wars and let’s not forget the endless list of anime and manga characters. I always find that one character and their story more appealing than the movie or book as a whole.

Sorry for this odd, short and random posts. I promised to write daily but I never said these would be quality texts. But at least you will always learn something new about me and get a sneak peek to my brain. Do you ever have a hard time finding subjects for your blog posts? Or have you ever tried this style of just writing about anything and nothing in your mind?

With love,

Nostalgic Viivi

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Finding that blogging motivation

Hello everyone!

My first week of daily blogging is over and it has been amazing. Like truly amazing. Before starting I was thinking that writing daily to my blogs would be one big nightmare. I was expecting it to be super hard, almost impossible and me to miss days right away. That didn’t happen. For the last six days, I have been blogging every day and it has been a bliss.

The motivation and excitement I had during the first year of blogging have returned.

There are so many new ideas, subjects for posts and things I want to share with the world. My mind is full of thoughts that want to get out. Especially my newest blogs and writing them is just so wonderful. No need to stress what others think because I don’t have that many readers on those blogs and the subjects are something I’m passionate about. Writing, books, movies, and music. I could talk about them forever.

After writing every day for the last week, one thought has been constantly in my mind… I want to do this. I want to wake up late and start my day by writing. Then I want to continue by writing some more. Writing blogs, writing stories, writing anything and all the time. Reading books, listening to good music and binge-watching TV series. At some point going out and seeing my friends or sitting alone in small cafes in foreigner cities writing about the people walking past.

I will keep blogging every day next week, week after that, month after that and until the end of this year. This is a promise. Even if I am bad at keeping them, this one won’t break. How do I know?

When I once truly decide something (and when someone tells me that I can’t do it), nothing can stop me. Writing a blog, daily blogging and working as a full-time writer are things like that.

NOTHING CAN STOP ME!

With love

Determined Viivi

Who is Lost Viivi?

This is questions I ask myself too often and some of you may be wondering so let’s make a post of me introducing myself (even if I may be one of the most boring people in the whole wide world…) Feel free to ask any questions at any time in the comments and I will try to answer as well as I can. 🙂

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No, my given name isn’t “Lost Viivi”

Even if it would be funny, my full name isn’t Lost Viivi. Viivi is my first name (not Vivii, not Vivi and not Vivian even if it used to be my nickname). The word “lost” comes from me being always lost. I’m not even kidding. Whatever we are talking about knowing what I want to do with my life or walking around the streets of unknown cities, I always find a way to get lost. And being lost usually ends up me getting in some kind of trouble. For example that one time in Japan when I got so lost that I found myself from an abandoned amusement park.

Sometimes I also use name Viivi Severina but even that isn’t my full given name. Maybe someday I will share my name but right now that’s not important.

Where are you from? 

Finland. It’s a big country with only about 6 million people between Sweden, Norway, and Russia. We don’t have polar bears but Santa Claus lives in our Lapland.

How old are you?

22. Let’s not talk more about this. #agecrisis

What kind of person you are?

Shy, stubborn and hopefully kind. I’m introvert who likes spending time alone and never goes out to party on weekends but at the same time, I can live in full hostels for months surrounded by other people without feeling uncomfortable. I love talking to new people and listening to their stories. My friend calls me “human magnet” because random people tend to talk to me without reason and I meet odd people who want to be friends everywhere I go.

Don’t mistake my shyness and kindness as weakness. I may think others before myself and follow people around but if I have decided something, you can’t change my mind. When people tell me that I can’t do something, I will definitely prove them wrong. Someone once told me that I can’t speak English. People tend to tell me to get a real job. And I have gotten more than enough comments telling me to travel less. Guess what I am doing right now!

Why and when you started blogging?

I have been blogging on and off for years but in the end, my blogs have always died. I started writing in English about two years ago on my travel blog and I never stopped for everyone’s surprise. This year I decided to start daily blogging because last autumn I realized that writing is my thing.

The reason I started blogging in English isn’t so simple. My mind was in dark place after I had returned home from three months long trip to Japan. I believed that I was going to study something I hated for the next six years without a way out. Writing has always been a coping mechanism for me, writing a blog was an easy way to forget everything else.

How many blogs do you have?

Too many. Right now I have 5 blogs and 1 blog I use to share my daily posts from all these sites.

Travel blogLost side blog
Photography blog
Review blogWriter’s blog
Daily posts

Do you study, work or what do you do?

I think this subject and story needs its own post but shortly said I work as a writer who also studies. Last autumn I realized that I would, in theory, live by doing freelancer writing (for example writing blog posts for companies) and doing translations. In addition to doing this, I am studying two university degrees at the same time: creative writing and business. I study online so I can spend about half of my time traveling.

What is your biggest dream?

I have finally admitted to myself that I want to be an author. I want to write books. I have no idea if that will be possible (probably not in English because my language skills still suck). If I can’t be an author, I dream of living as someone who can write every day, live every month in a different city and find happiness. I want to leave my mark on this world.

What kind of family do you have?

Crazy, funny, tiring and just impossible to deal with. I probably shouldn’t write about my family because they know about my blogs but I doubt they would have the patience to read anything I write. I have two younger siblings so I’m the oldest and the wisest and the best (at least if you ask from me). My parents are divorced and I am currently living in my grandpa’s basement.

Favorite movies, TV series, books, music, etc.?

My favorites are changing all the time but I will publish twice a week to my review blog about these themes so read more from there. I like almost everything except horror. Crime-themed movies and books are my favorites. I listen all kind of music as long as I can listen to it all the time. My family and friends know me as the one who listens to Asian bands. Right now I am totally hooked on reading writing guidebooks but also my taste with books is almost endless.

If I had to name some of my favorites, I would probably mention these ones:

Movies: Now You See Me, Star Wars
TV series: Criminal Minds, Leverage
Books: Wild Mind: Living the Writer’s Life by Natalie Goldberg
Bands/Musicians: BTS, Nu’est, One Ok Rock, Sanni, Haloo Helsinki, NF

What are the plans for this blog?

I will continue writing whatever I want and how often I want. Now I am trying to make that daily blogging challenge happen so except posts in this random side blog every Tuesdays, Thursdays, and Sundays. Mostly the posts will be about my life and thoughts. In addition maybe some general “lifestyle” posts like sharing cool videos, tips, and lists of anything. If I can open up enough maybe some fangirling over books, bands, and movies. Who knows where this year will take us…

Feel free to follow me on my social media. I am super inactive on Instagram because I only want to share colorful photos. My Twitter is full of random rambling, photos of food, shared travel themed links and updates of my newest posts. Follow everything at your own risk… I always appreciate comments so ask anything or let’s have a conversation on Twitter. I’m shy but I won’t bite! 🙂

With love,

Lost Viivi

 

2017 Predictions, Did they happen?

A few days ago I shared an old draft of mine. Today we are continuing with another old blog post that I never published. I am passionate tarot card reader and I wanted to do a post where I predicted my year 2017. The idea was to make 10 predictions, but I only did 3. Let’s see if I was right!

I love reading tarot cards and surprisingly often my readings are close to the truth. So why not try to predict my own year 2017? And now see if I was even closely correct.

1.My year 2017 generally

“You are living hard times. Your spending and revenues are at the same size so you have to live modestly. Somehow you will cope without getting to problems with money. Use your brains to get out of the tricky situations.

You feel like everything is going to the wrong direction and you are losing the fight. Admit your lose and return to the beginning. That will be the only way to happiness. Say out loud your hoes and dreams. Then go towards them.

If you try hard enough and wait for the right moment the luck will finally be on your side. Wait patiently and everything will be just fine. You will get over any hardships on your way. Just believe in yourself and go towards your dreams.”

2.My personality

“Wanderer who hangs on her opinions even when others don’t believe in them. Someone who complains too much about the tiny stupid things. A person who tries to save money but uses it stupidly. Trying to be nice and kind for others even when struggling herself. A stubborn person who will get in trouble.”

3.Money, assets and material problems

“Get over your fears. If you give up you will lose your money/assets/property. Be brave in all situations. You have to work hard to make enough money. Try to live without spending to useless things.

You are living hard times. Your spending and revenues are at the same size so you have to live modestly. Somehow you will cope without getting to problems with money. Use your brains to get out of the tricky situations.”

So, were the predictions correct?

The funny thing is that I got a same money problems card for two different readings. Did I have money problems? Yes. Like the reading said for some time my spendings and revenues were same. Even now I am in a situation where I can’t spend to anything stupid. But still didn’t have any money problems and never struggled with getting by.

I have worked hard and tried to live as well as I can for the whole year. It’s starting to pay off. I get more and more writing jobs every week and if I wasn’t studying at the same time I think I would be able to do this as a full-time job. Isn’t that crazy?

“You feel like everything is going to the wrong direction and you are losing the fight.”
This sentence sums up my whole year… I started 2017 studying in a city far away from my home and I was miserable. It felt totally a wrong direction and I wanted to keep studying for the sake of “being normal” and “getting a normal job”. In the end, I gave up and found something better.

On the other hand, I am again in this situation but this time with my blogging and especially travel blog. I haven’t been writing because I am not sure what I want to do. But just now about a month ago I gave up for a while. I just stopped. Now I am again ready to start.

Maybe the most true of my predictions was this one sentence: “Say out loud your hoes and dreams. Then go towards them.” I remember this one class from spring when I was still attending to business school actively. There were about hundred people in our class and the teaches wanted every one of us to tell the whole class one thing we are good at. I was scared to death because I have always believed that I am not good at anything.

But at the same time I was panicing, one thought entered my mind. I can write. No, I want to write. I don’t want to study business, I just want to write. When it was my turn I said it out loud for the first time in my life.

“I am good at writing.”
For a moment it was quiet and then my teacher asked me “In what kind of writing?”

“I am good at writing stories, blog articles, about travel, poems, emotions, school work, research, comments, inspiring sentences, lies. I am good at writing anything I want.”

At this point, I had been writing all my life. For over ten years. But it had never occurred to me that maybe it would be my future. Of course, I had dreamed of living by writing books and being a real author but it seemed impossible in my small home country Finland. There was no way I could do it, right? Or maybe I could.

After I had said out loud for the first time that I am good at writing, I couldn’t stop. Words have more power than we think. Soon I am good at writing changed to I want to live my life by writing. Then about four months later I applied to study creative writing in Finnish open university. The words and dreams I had said outloud have started turn alive. I have no idea where I am going but it seems easier now. It is easy to change your own future if you just believe in your own words. Fortunately for me, writing words is the only thing I am good at.

I want to be a writer. I want to travel. I want to try out this blogging and writing thing because it seems to work and I truly love it.

With love,

Mysterious Viivi

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Poem Rant

Third of December
Last weekend was my second time on the creative writing university course I am currently attending to. The theme of this second weekend was poems. My relationship with poems could be described as awkward and almost hostile:

I hate poems. I always end up writing poems. For some odd reason, other people love the poems I write. They love the poems I don’t want to write.

Reading poems isn’t for me. I know there is a lot of people in this world who share my opinion. They think that poetry is boring, too hard to understand and not for them. Only the last claim describes me.

Poems aren’t boring. You just have to find the right ones. Even music and especially rap songs would be poems if we wrote them down and forgot the sound. And who doesn’t listen to music?

Anyone can understand poems. If you say that I am wrong, then you have never even tried. Find a poem and read it ten times. That’s it. Now you understand it. There is no one way to read poems. Everyone understand them differently depending on their own mind and life experiences. Sometimes the poets can’t even understand their own poems so you shouldn’t stress too much. Just read a poem and let your own thoughts fly.

Even if you think that the poem is deathly boring. Last weekend taught me that it is okay to hate poems. As long as you are feeling something the poems are doing their job right.

tomatoes, you know, are real
that is, if they remain tomatoes
if they try to be melons, however,
they then become fakes
though everything and everyone is real
in their own way,
it seems we always try so hard to become fakes
-Mitsuo Aida

I know I started this text by saying that I hate poems. Maybe it is a lie? My lacking English is on the way. The better way to say this may be “I hate poetry”. I am not sure. I hate poems but then again there are poems I love more than anything else. Like that Mitsuo Aida’s tomato poem above.

I first saw this poem at Mitsuo Aida museum in Tokyo, Japan. It was written in Japanese and this is just the translation. I have no idea if it is as good in Japanese but like this, it described my feeling at that time. Before going to Japan I had tried to be a melon. I applied to university, tried my best to create a normal life and just played this role of someone I was expected to be.

Then I went to Japan. For the first time in a long while, I felt like I was a tomato again. I had to buy a postcard with this text in it. I think I lost it during the three months I spent in Japan but I still can’t forget this poem.

So, I don’t hate poems. Some poems touch my heart, make me smile or occasionally even laugh out loud. It’s awkward and maybe a little hostile but I love poems and writing them.

With love,

Hard To Understand Viivi

First of December

I haven’t been busy but I have no time. Because I am some kind of stupid idiot, I have decided to study two university degrees at the same time. Why did I ever think that this would be a good idea? I study creative writing. It is my passion. It is my thing. But then I decided to continue my business studies that I declared as too simple and boring for me.

It’s partly because of money. Finland’s government helps financially those who study in “real university”. My creative writing is only an open university. A writer isn’t a job in Finland. Or so most of us seem to think. So, why I try so hard to be something not possible? Why is writing my only real passion? Even traveling seems dull and irrelevant next to days used writing never-ending stories.

I don’t have time for my blogs. Maybe trying to write three blogs wasn’t possible in the first place? All the inspiration I used to have is now written for other people who order blog articles from me. I miss writing for myself. Writing whatever I want and without worrying about grammar and being 100% correct.

This is why I am writing now. This December I will write more. After New Year I will start normal rhythm. Travel blog once a week. Random posts here whenever I want. Photos to my photo blog as often as possible.

Today is the first day of December. 24 days till Christmas. Maybe I have all the elements to do writing Chrismas calender? 24 posts. Can I do it?

With love,

Hopeful Viivi

I am struggling with procrastination

I procrastinate more than most of the people. If there is any task I have to do before an exact date, it’s 99% possibility that I won’t do it until there are about three hours left. And still, I never return anything late. And usually, my work gets praised. During high school and primary school, this worked just fine. I had a deadline for almost everything and I did well in tests without studying but now when I am officially “adult” everything is a struggle.

At mornings I know exactly what I should do during the day but when I fall asleep at night I have never done everything. With sending emails or making phone calls it gets even worse. For example, right now I have been trying to make one call to my bank for about six months. SIX MONTHS. That’s not an even bad situation in my bad case because one email has been waiting to be sent for 10 months and let’s not even speak about the emails and calls I never made.

Someone, please help me. Is there a way to get out of this endless ring?

Inspirations for today’s text was from this amazing TED Talk.
If you are like me, please watch it and tell your own experiences in the comments!

In this post series, I write 10 minutes without stopping, editing or planning anything. I just write whatever is in my mind and publish it like that. 
Expect to see more of this every Thursday!

With love,

Procrastinating Viivi