Storms and anime

Hello!

This is my first weekly likes and dislikes post. Starting from now you will get new likes and dislikes post every Monday. Sometimes I may only have couple of things to share and sometimes I may come up with a long list. It really depends how busy week I have had.

But now let’s go to the point and dislikes and likes I had on the past week!

Likes:

Thunderstorms

It has been stormy week! Thunder, lightning and hard rain. Yes, it is on my likes list. I have always been the girl who loves storms. It makes me feel somehow peaceful. Crazy, right?

Wattpad

I may be quite late with this but I just found Wattpad. (It’s site where people can write their own books.) I love writing but even more I love reading! It’s amazing how many interesting books there is and all free.

Finnish police and Guns

Yesterday they talked about past Finnish tragedy where police shooting caused people dying and getting hurt (it had been 30 years from that). After this the way Finnish police uses guns had changed. Nowadays police (I mean whole Finnish police force and not just one police officer) only shoots a couple of times per year. And usually those are warning shots.

Bungo Stray Dogs

Anime series (if you don’t know what anime is, it is Japanese cartoon…) Yes, I watch a lot of anime and this is just my newest addiction so be aware of more anime being listed here on the coming weeks.

Bungo Stray Dogs tells about detective agency with people who have “magic” powers. I literally like all solving mysteries things so it’s not surprising I get hooked to this. The characters are interesting and I totally have crush to one of the villains. Hups…

Tallinn

I’m traveling to Tallinn next weekend with my friend.

 

Dislikes:

Criminal Minds: Beyond the Borders

I have loved Criminal Minds for a long time so waiting for this new show was exiting. It was going to add together my two favorites, profiling and traveling. Now when you wonder why it is in my dislikes let me explain. I got disappointed.

I would love this series if I started to look it without knowing about Criminal Minds. However I was waiting for all the lovely psychology and profiling CM has and that never came. It’s more like NCIS and that’s not bad thing but I was hoping for more… Maybe I will still fall in love with this TV-series?

Blogging Problems…

Well… not problems but I have no idea how to evolve. I mean should I buy domain name? Do I use too much photos because my storage in WordPress is starting to end too quickly? I just don’t know what to do!

Problems with school

Shortly I disagree with my family what my dreams should be…

 

 

There was everything from last week! I hope you enjoyed. What things did you dislike and like last week?

With love,

Viivi Severina

 

 

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Not Enough

Yesterday I sat twenty minutes in car with my mum. The whole time she told me reasons why I should apply to the agricultural school. I have kept saying that I don’t want to go there. I will be miserable if I have to study that subject for another three years. She doesn’t listen.

She says it’s the only place I can get in. That I can’t do other jobs. It’s like meant to be. I already have studied animals, it’s close to home and I would easily get internship from my dad’s big company. Everything seems perfectly fit in. Expect me.

Even if that job and school was meant to be does it matte if I’m going to go insane doing it? I already know it would destroy me. This may sound dramatic but it is the truth. There is no way I will be drown back to the gray normal. I will not anymore do something others want and cause losing my own meaning.

I need challenges. I’m scared of average, not being enough, living my life just doing fine but never great. I’m scared to death that I will never find my meaning in this life. And that drives me to fight.

What my mum doesn’t get is that trying to make me do something will just backfire. The more people doubt me the more determined I am to walk my own road. My life is constant fight against the expectations. Going through my own dreams but never revealing them for anyone in the fear of getting laughed at.

So I’m going to fight once again. This is my life and my decisions. No one (even the people close to me) can’t tell me what to do. I may be stupid walking my own road but at least I don’t need to think “what if” in the future.

Keep fighting!

Viivi Severina

The Traveler Who Lacks Courage

Today I wanted to talk you about something that has been on my mind recently.

Courage.

To be specific courage to travel. Now you may think how can the starting travel blogger be struggling with something so simple. Well any problem isn’t small if it prevents you from doing what you want.

So courage to travel. For me it’s something I radically lack. I have already given up with going to university right now (or to be clearer maybe that plan never was so important for me…) I know traveling is the next step for me to do.

BUT…

Yes, there is the big but named courage.

One personality trait I would give away right now is worrying. What if I fail? what will I do if I run out of money? I’m probably not going to find a job. Everything will go badly and it will not be what I wanted from my life. What if I try to make this writing thing a life and don’t succeed? There is no other way for me to live

And so I stare my plans and don’t know what to do. I loaned Australia books from library but can’t open them. I check airline tickets to South Korea at least three times a day (on incognito browser because I know too much about traveling cheap). I have everything planned out: volunteering three months in Korea, going to working holiday in Australia and after that maybe living the life where I just keep traveling.

Only thing I don’t have it the courage to make my plans true. I haven’t shared them with anyone before this. I feel like telling someone means they will laugh at me and make my dreams nightmares.

Last time I bought the tickets without telling anyone and left before they even realized. This time I’m going to find my strength. Today I am going to tell my plan for my parents, friends and for my scared soul. It’s time to make my life my own.

 

With courage and love,

Neidotta

University? Travel? No idea…

Hello!My university entrance exam results just come out and no big surprises there. I didn’t get in. Although I am in position that if 11 persons don’t take their places I will get in. However very unlikely.

So what now?

I have no idea. Right away after revealing to my mom that I didn’t get in she started to rant how I should now try to find job. That’s probably true. I already had one gap year so this another one I should life like adult.

If you have read my travel blog you know that I grave to see the world. I won’t listen mom’s advice even if I will walk towards my own doomed life. Traveling isn’t easy. Without money it is almost impossible.

For my own bad luck (or good luck. Depend how you want to see it.) I have always been the person who wants to break all the odds. When someone tells me I can’t do it, nothing is stopping me from proving them wrong.

Really, so what now?

Well I have Helpx site open and I am trying to look for place/hostel to volunteer for couple of months. Then I should decide some kind of job to do. Working holiday in Australia or New Zealand? Cruise ship work? Something else?

Someone hire me to travel the world! Please?

With love,

Neidotta

Tomorrow Changes Everything

Hi there! Today I was going to post my travel diary from Sweden but I have been so stressed out that it’s still not ready. Basically my university exam results can come out any moment but at the latest tomorrow. To add my stress currently the site where I can see them isn’t working.

So now I am waiting and tomorrow probably staring the web site until I see the results. I’m so scared. One day and I will know how my life is going to play out.

I don’t have any plan right now. I don’t even know how to inform the school that I will take the place if I get accepted in. I don’t know if I want or not to go to school. I’m big mess without future plans.

What if I just want to write and travel?

With love,

Neidotta

Fight Until The End

She tells stories in her head, hopes someday someone will be able to read her mind. Then the reality hits hard. That day will never come. If she wants to share the adventures running around her head there is only one way. Only one destiny waiting for her.

The white paper is staring back at her. Screaming that there is no way for her to do this. Writing or better said being good at it is just dream. It will be just one of the stories in her head. One of the beautiful dreams repeating over and over again.

After first word she writes second, third ad fourth. After a while she starts to scream back for the paper. Puts sentence after sentence stories to its clean white surface. Even if this is going to be just one of the stories never happening she is not going down without fight. Because only way she knows how to live is by writing, she will fight until the end.