My week of missing traveling

Hello once again everyone! I hope you have had another amazing week. I – like the title says – missed traveling and was busy getting ready for my summer job starting. So normal week that it is quite hard to even describe.

If we start from the Monday, my yearning for traveling started right away. I have never taken anyone else to the airport. It has always been me who has left. However this Monday I drove my little sister (okay, she is already adult but for me she is forever my little sister…) to the airport and left her there. She is going for month long interail around Europe. Yes, I am totally jealous! I want to travel even if I just returned from a few weeks long trip. But now I have work to do for June and July and only after that I have planned Rome trip with my mom.

But really taking someone else to the airport is so odd feeling. I am used to seeing airports as places for me to escape to somewhere magical. Airports mean adventure. But now I just drove in front of it. Said goodbyes for my sister and drove back home watching airplanes taking of in my rear view mirror. I wasn’t in one of those planes and it hurts. My whole week went missing traveling and feeling like I was in wrong place. I should have been in some exotic country, not in cold boring Finland. Now my work has started and fortunately those feelings aren’t as vivid anymore. I love my job and this summer is going to be amazing.

During the rest of the week I met friends, ate too much ice cream and just enjoyed the last days of my summer holiday. I may have watched almost whole season of Miss Fisher’s Murder Mysteries but I am not going to admit anything. In addition to just chilling and going to flea market shopping with friends, I was as dog sitter for my family’s dog and did long walks around the nearby forest.

After week of relaxing my weekend was full of activities. First I was looking after my friends dog while she was at work (that took all Saturday morning and afternoon). Right after she got her dog I left with my mother to my cousin’s graduation party. It was, well, everything I was waiting for. It was like parties with my family always goes. Fun, chaotic and a lot of arguing. Fortunately, good food makes everything better.

Usually people keep asking about my future plans but surprisingly this time there was almost no talking about my wrong university decisions. My grandpa is giving up with the hope of me going to Estonia to study veterinary. Even if I survived school talks someone almost revealed my travel blog to my grandpa. Last time he knew that I wrote blog it ended up printed to our family book. This time I rather keep it just in internet…

Then on Sunday I had to wake up too early for my own good and drive to work. And here I am now, just working working working. I will be living the whole summer on our cottage and enjoying Finnish summer life. What would be better way to spend your holiday?

Song Of The Week

Noah Curys – I’m Stuck

I hope you are having an amazing day!

Lost Viivi

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I’m not a boy, I like pink!

I really want to write something more than just answers to blogger awards in this blog… I have always been good at writing random things (and also boring text without any proper meaning…) So, I was thinking about trying to write something every week. Trying to write. If you read my travel blog you may already know that I am the worst at keeping these kind of promises.

BUT my school is ending in a week and I have whole summer to write more. Maybe I will make this to work? So, wait for weekly wrap ups or whatever you want to call these on Monday or Sundays (or never). I will just talk about my week and maybe you can tell me about your week in the comments.

 

So, what happened to me on week 17?

To tell the truth, nothing much. I was sick the whole week and I had to move all furniture out of my apartment. I have to move out this Friday so last week I had meant to start cleaning and stuff. In the end I did almost nothing.

The start of last week was nice because I was still hyped up from my Easter family trip to Stockholm. We saw a lot of beautiful cherry blossoms there and now all I can think about is how could I save money to travel to Japan next spring. I just have to see more of that beauty!

(I may be quite boyish but I love everything pink…)

In addition to moving, being sick and recovering from travel, I sat in car for too long. First when my dad was helping me to move my stuff back to my hometown. Then another five hours trip back to my current university town. I love driving alone for long periods of time so I had no complaining. It calms my mind and right now I have too many things in my head.

I stopped for tea three times just to relax, walk around gas stations and enjoy the weather. (That last part is totally ironical…) About half of my drive back to my student city it was snowing. Snow in April… Welcome to Finland! Funny thing is that even if it was snowing I also saw the first ice cream kiosks of this summer.

I’m not kidding! It’s so comical to see open kiosk and signs for ice cream while you are driving in snowfall. And because Finns are desperate for summer to start I even saw customers in four of the five kiosks I saw during that five hours. Who wouldn’t love ice cream even if it is cold and wintery?

 

Funny Story Of The Week

I am someone who is always in some kind of problems or in awkward situations. Last week maybe the funniest moment I had with another human being was in gas station’s toilet. I had stopped for tea break during my long drive back home and of course first things first I decided to find the toilets. I went in, did my business and all good. I was washing my hands when a little girl (maybe about 5 years old but I am bad at guessing ages…) and her mother walked to the sink next to mine.

Totally normal and all good I dried my hands until I heard whisper behind me:

“Mom… What is that boy doing in girls’ toilet?”

At this point I was trying to not laugh and the mom looked super embarrassed while explaining to her child that I was in fact girl. I mean I have short hair, boyish face and my huge hoodie hided my boobs so I can understand why the little girl was mistaken. This is not even the first time something like this has happened so I am kind of used to it. But every time this happens it is still the funniest thing if you ask from me.

I am forever confusing children (and sometimes even adults)! 😀

 

Song Of The Week

SVGV – Who Am I

THIS SONG! It is just too real… The lyrics are like straight from my mind. Somehow it has always been hard for me to know who I am. I feel like everyone around me know what they want to do and where to go with their lives. Me in the other hand… Well, I have no idea. I have always wanted to do everything but I don’t see myself doing any of those things for the rest of my life.

In the morning, in the street
In the music, in the beat
In the people I see
I’ve been looking for myself

In the train, In the rain
In the pain, In the gain
In the city I came
I’ve been looking for myself

Whatever I do and where ever I go I just feel like I am looking for myself. Maybe this thing would be my thing? Maybe this way of living the right one for me? I don’t really know. And I have never understood. How can some people just decide so easily what they want to do? I mean this world is full of different choices. So many ways one can live. I just don’t know how could I choose only one life path for myself…

 

I didn’t mean to end this so dramatically and depressingly. Sorry. So, how have you been? Any good or bad moments you want to share? Let’s hope I will write again next Monday (or at least some time in the future…)

With love,

Viivi Severina

So…University? Or..?

It’s again that time of the year! I have to throw dices, pick eyes shut and randomly decide universities to apply for. I know I am in one right now but this isn’t really my thing and my parents (+everyone else) thinks that I should study something different.

Problem?

I have no idea what! So this post is basically going to be me not applying anywhere, trying to find THAT right university for myself and of course random talk about nothing important. So… are you ready? Let’s get random and try to solve this impossible puzzle of my school problems.

Right now I am studying business in small city far far away from my home town. It is not ideal but I have liked some of the subject we study here. Marketing is something I would see myself studying more but I totally suck at it so probably not the best career choice. I am extremely good at money, legal, computer and documentation things but I have totally slept through all those classes because it was too easy. I would die to boredom if I had to study more of that.

One possible option: studying business remotely.

+ I LOVE remote and internet studying
+ Possible to do the work anywhere
+ More travelling? And blogging?
+ Those interesting marketing courses
– Limited possibilities / only a few different courses
– Where would I live? Going back to home is not option…
– What would be my future career?
– Two days / a month ‘real’ school days

If I choose that remote studying option, the next step is to choose do I want to continue in the school I am right now or do I was to try to get in some other school. My current university is nice but it’s expensive to come here for a few days every month. Problem is that I don’t know if I can get in to other similar universities from my university.

Old dream: Psychology

+ I studied all possible courses in high school
+ Talking with people, reading others, etc. is my strength
+ I dreamed about this for a few years
– Hard to get in
– I am not sure if this is my dream anymore

Psychology was something I really enjoyed in high school. Other courses I never really studied or tried but in my psychology classes I was always listening, writing things up and really trying. In the end I never even tried to get in. I don’t even know why. Maybe it just isn’t my thing?

New interest: Translation & English

+ Apparently I am good translator
+ I enjoy translating and could see it as my job
+ I can study English literature at the same time
– My spoken English is bad so…
– It seems quite boring thing to study
– Once again is my English good enough?

I have done quite a few translating gigs this year and it seems like I have found my hidden talent. I even enjoy doing it. However I am not sure if it is something I want to do for the rest of my life. It’s only something I would see myself doing for a while. Also there (and in entrance exams) I have to speak English and I just can’t pronounce any words…

What even is this? Cultural Producer

+ Sounds interesting and combines all things I love
+ Partly remote program
+ Culture is always good thing
– I am not leader
– I have no idea what this career would be
– My parents would never agree

I just found this field of study but I have no idea what it really is. Well, I have a few days to find more information. Maybe it’s my thing?

For my writer side: Journalism

+ I love writing
– I don’t see myself as journalist
– I could never write “official” texts

Why can’t there just be job that would allow me to travel the world, write for hours everyday, meet new people, volunteer and keep learning different kind of subjects forever? I am lost case. Nothing interests me. How can I even choose one thing to do for the rest of my life??!?

There is so many more universities and fields I could talk about but I am now feeling so helpless that let’s not talk more about that. I didn’t really find any interesting subjects! So many options and still nothing that fits me.

 

Any tips how to find that right future career for me? (Don’t suggest career tests because those always tell that I would be good priest, relationship counselor, entrepreneur or librarian… No thanks!) 

Do you have any problems with deciding your future career? Or did you have these problems before? And like always all comments are welcome (even if you wanted to tell me about your day!)

With love,

Viivi Severina

Diary: My Crazy Family

Dear diary (and the internet),

sometimes my family is crazy. Crazy but I still love them. I just spend fifteen minutes hiding in toilet because I didn’twant to talk with my grandpa. Don’t get me wrong, like I said I love him. But sometimes my life goes a little crazy living with this family. 
I’m person who hates conflicts, doesn’t want to talk bad about others and just hopes everyone would get along. Ironically I was born in family full of conflicts and bizarre fights.
Something good has came out of this huge fight. Everyone has forgotten my education problems. Few months ago everything I heart was how I have chosen wrong path and how I should just do like they say and go to study where they want.
Now everything my family talks is how my mom has gone crazy. She hasn’t so no worries. She just sold part of land she owned. Everyone is having drama around us while me with my mom and siblings are in the middle.
I’m happy because after this month I will move away. I don’t know where but definitely away from here.
I love my family but living 21 years with them is more than enough…

I didn’t have much to say today but just wanted to get these feelings out of my mind. So, sorry I haven’t written a lot and I hope you are having better day than I am.

With love,

Viivi Severina