I can’t skip a day…

Hello everyone!

I didn’t know what to write today. I’m sleeping on my friend’s floor, the day is almost changing and I have promised to blog every day. It’s easy to write posts when you have one specific subject but this blog is something different. “Write about anything that’s on your mind.” So I was thinking when starting this specific blog. I was sure it would be easy but I was not.

How to come up with blog text idea from scratches? The only solution I know is to just write. Write even if it sounds stupid, and keep writing even if your whole mind is empty. They teach us this technique in university when learning about creative writing. Usually, you are not meant to show these texts for people. You’re writing for yourself. Just for yourself. And now I’m writing for everyone who knows me and for so many people who have no idea who I’m.

Okay, write about anything that’s currently on your mind. What’s in my mind? What am I thinking?

We watched today the last part of the Lord of the Rings. I had almost forgotten how much I love that movie. The plot, the characters and, of course, Legolas. Don’t we all love Legolas? If you don’t, there is something really wrong with your brain (just kidding).

Maybe I should list all the characters I have fallen in love with? That would be a long post. It would start with characters from children’s series. Robin Hood from the Disney movie and Odd from that cartoon series Code Lyoko. There would be Legolas and Draco Malfoy, Han Solo from Star Wars and let’s not forget the endless list of anime and manga characters. I always find that one character and their story more appealing than the movie or book as a whole.

Sorry for this odd, short and random posts. I promised to write daily but I never said these would be quality texts. But at least you will always learn something new about me and get a sneak peek to my brain. Do you ever have a hard time finding subjects for your blog posts? Or have you ever tried this style of just writing about anything and nothing in your mind?

With love,

Nostalgic Viivi

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Finding that blogging motivation

Hello everyone!

My first week of daily blogging is over and it has been amazing. Like truly amazing. Before starting I was thinking that writing daily to my blogs would be one big nightmare. I was expecting it to be super hard, almost impossible and me to miss days right away. That didn’t happen. For the last six days, I have been blogging every day and it has been a bliss.

The motivation and excitement I had during the first year of blogging have returned.

There are so many new ideas, subjects for posts and things I want to share with the world. My mind is full of thoughts that want to get out. Especially my newest blogs and writing them is just so wonderful. No need to stress what others think because I don’t have that many readers on those blogs and the subjects are something I’m passionate about. Writing, books, movies, and music. I could talk about them forever.

After writing every day for the last week, one thought has been constantly in my mind… I want to do this. I want to wake up late and start my day by writing. Then I want to continue by writing some more. Writing blogs, writing stories, writing anything and all the time. Reading books, listening to good music and binge-watching TV series. At some point going out and seeing my friends or sitting alone in small cafes in foreigner cities writing about the people walking past.

I will keep blogging every day next week, week after that, month after that and until the end of this year. This is a promise. Even if I am bad at keeping them, this one won’t break. How do I know?

When I once truly decide something (and when someone tells me that I can’t do it), nothing can stop me. Writing a blog, daily blogging and working as a full-time writer are things like that.

NOTHING CAN STOP ME!

With love

Determined Viivi

Who is Lost Viivi?

This is questions I ask myself too often and some of you may be wondering so let’s make a post of me introducing myself (even if I may be one of the most boring people in the whole wide world…) Feel free to ask any questions at any time in the comments and I will try to answer as well as I can. 🙂

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No, my given name isn’t “Lost Viivi”

Even if it would be funny, my full name isn’t Lost Viivi. Viivi is my first name (not Vivii, not Vivi and not Vivian even if it used to be my nickname). The word “lost” comes from me being always lost. I’m not even kidding. Whatever we are talking about knowing what I want to do with my life or walking around the streets of unknown cities, I always find a way to get lost. And being lost usually ends up me getting in some kind of trouble. For example that one time in Japan when I got so lost that I found myself from an abandoned amusement park.

Sometimes I also use name Viivi Severina but even that isn’t my full given name. Maybe someday I will share my name but right now that’s not important.

Where are you from? 

Finland. It’s a big country with only about 6 million people between Sweden, Norway, and Russia. We don’t have polar bears but Santa Claus lives in our Lapland.

How old are you?

22. Let’s not talk more about this. #agecrisis

What kind of person you are?

Shy, stubborn and hopefully kind. I’m introvert who likes spending time alone and never goes out to party on weekends but at the same time, I can live in full hostels for months surrounded by other people without feeling uncomfortable. I love talking to new people and listening to their stories. My friend calls me “human magnet” because random people tend to talk to me without reason and I meet odd people who want to be friends everywhere I go.

Don’t mistake my shyness and kindness as weakness. I may think others before myself and follow people around but if I have decided something, you can’t change my mind. When people tell me that I can’t do something, I will definitely prove them wrong. Someone once told me that I can’t speak English. People tend to tell me to get a real job. And I have gotten more than enough comments telling me to travel less. Guess what I am doing right now!

Why and when you started blogging?

I have been blogging on and off for years but in the end, my blogs have always died. I started writing in English about two years ago on my travel blog and I never stopped for everyone’s surprise. This year I decided to start daily blogging because last autumn I realized that writing is my thing.

The reason I started blogging in English isn’t so simple. My mind was in dark place after I had returned home from three months long trip to Japan. I believed that I was going to study something I hated for the next six years without a way out. Writing has always been a coping mechanism for me, writing a blog was an easy way to forget everything else.

How many blogs do you have?

Too many. Right now I have 5 blogs and 1 blog I use to share my daily posts from all these sites.

Travel blogLost side blog
Photography blog
Review blogWriter’s blog
Daily posts

Do you study, work or what do you do?

I think this subject and story needs its own post but shortly said I work as a writer who also studies. Last autumn I realized that I would, in theory, live by doing freelancer writing (for example writing blog posts for companies) and doing translations. In addition to doing this, I am studying two university degrees at the same time: creative writing and business. I study online so I can spend about half of my time traveling.

What is your biggest dream?

I have finally admitted to myself that I want to be an author. I want to write books. I have no idea if that will be possible (probably not in English because my language skills still suck). If I can’t be an author, I dream of living as someone who can write every day, live every month in a different city and find happiness. I want to leave my mark on this world.

What kind of family do you have?

Crazy, funny, tiring and just impossible to deal with. I probably shouldn’t write about my family because they know about my blogs but I doubt they would have the patience to read anything I write. I have two younger siblings so I’m the oldest and the wisest and the best (at least if you ask from me). My parents are divorced and I am currently living in my grandpa’s basement.

Favorite movies, TV series, books, music, etc.?

My favorites are changing all the time but I will publish twice a week to my review blog about these themes so read more from there. I like almost everything except horror. Crime-themed movies and books are my favorites. I listen all kind of music as long as I can listen to it all the time. My family and friends know me as the one who listens to Asian bands. Right now I am totally hooked on reading writing guidebooks but also my taste with books is almost endless.

If I had to name some of my favorites, I would probably mention these ones:

Movies: Now You See Me, Star Wars
TV series: Criminal Minds, Leverage
Books: Wild Mind: Living the Writer’s Life by Natalie Goldberg
Bands/Musicians: BTS, Nu’est, One Ok Rock, Sanni, Haloo Helsinki, NF

What are the plans for this blog?

I will continue writing whatever I want and how often I want. Now I am trying to make that daily blogging challenge happen so except posts in this random side blog every Tuesdays, Thursdays, and Sundays. Mostly the posts will be about my life and thoughts. In addition maybe some general “lifestyle” posts like sharing cool videos, tips, and lists of anything. If I can open up enough maybe some fangirling over books, bands, and movies. Who knows where this year will take us…

Feel free to follow me on my social media. I am super inactive on Instagram because I only want to share colorful photos. My Twitter is full of random rambling, photos of food, shared travel themed links and updates of my newest posts. Follow everything at your own risk… I always appreciate comments so ask anything or let’s have a conversation on Twitter. I’m shy but I won’t bite! 🙂

With love,

Lost Viivi

 

Mission Impossible: Daily Blogging

The year 2018 has started and I’m ready to fail in my impossible mission for a lazy person like me. Yesterday was the first day of my daily blogging for one year challenge. I have shared this with a few friends and Twitter. Most people have wished me good luck, others called me crazy. My own mind is mostly just screaming out of fear, stress, and excitement. I love blogging so why shouldn’t I do it a daily thing?

This is probably a stupid idea and my history as a blogger has more than enough proof. I have had several blogs but all of them have died after the first year. Last year I promised to write twice a week and then after failing that once a week. Do I even need to admit that I failed in that too? Now my mind just decides that writing once a day is a perfect plan. Crazy, huh?

Yesterday I wrote the first post on my brand new review blog. It’s one of the things I am most amazed about. So easy to just write when you have no one who wants to read. No matter what you say or if the language sucks. There will be only a few people reading and if they don’t like it, they will just skip your blog. I haven’t felt like that for a long time. Not after I told my family about my travel blog and realized that it has over a thousand readers. Now I have close to three thousand people following my blog and writing anything feels impossible.

I am scared of failing.

Does anyone know how to get over these fears? Maybe the only way is to just keep writing. Just keep swimming, just keep swimming. (I may have watched Finding Dory a few days ago…) Last autumn my university creative writing teacher got me hooked on reading writing guidebooks. That’s probably the biggest reason why this crazy idea of daily blogging came into my mind. There is one theme that keeps repeating itself in these books: Just write every day without caring for your inner voice telling that it’s a bad idea. 

Okay, no book says it like that. It’s always told more poetically and with fewer awkward words between. But the idea is same. If you keep writing consistently, it gets easier. Or well not easier but doing it everyday changes to routine and routine is often easy despite the task being hard.

I’m rambling while writing, aren’t I? You better get used to it. Writing every day also means writing without editing. Some people would accuse me of favoring quantity over quality. During all this creative writing I have studied during the last four months, I have learned to approach my blogging from a new point of view. The more you write the better you get at it. Later on, we can see if that’s a good thing.

If you are new here, welcome. I’m Viivi and I’m one big mess who owns too many blogs for her own good. Right now, I also try to live my dream life and that has killed my sense of reality. Feel free to follow this blog so you can read more odd posts or see my daily posts in LostViivi.com

What are your plans for the year 2018? Anything as crazy as mine?

With love,

Viivi with a plan (aka a bad idea)

2018, Year of Blogging

2018 is almost here. In my travel blog’s last post I mentioned that at the start of the year 2017 I promised myself it would be my year of traveling. Surprisingly, it was a quite easy promise to keep. Now it’s time to make my New Year’s resolution for 2018. Wanna know what I have decided? Or maybe the title of this post already gave it away.

The year 2018 is going to be my year of blogging.

If you are an avid reader of my blogs, you know that I am a blogging addict. It all started with my travel blog. Then I created photography blog to learn photo editing. After that, this side blog was born. And I have been talking about starting review blog for forever (I even have like 5 post written for it). In addition to all these, I have wanted to start writing a blog about my adventures as an almost full-time writer for some time now.

That makes 3 blogs and 2 blogs I would like to start at the beginning of 2018. Like I said… I am an addict.

During my travel year 2017, blogging became harder. I have had blogs before but I have never written them longer than for a year. The oldest of my blogs, Go Travel Global, will be two years next February. I have never gotten this far so I have no idea if the writing will get easier. That’s what I want to believe and so 2018 will be dedicated to blogging.

I know that I have told these plans to you earlier. “I will start writing twice a week. No more blogging breaks. Hey, I am back!” When we talk about schedule, I’m the worst. However, this time I have made schedule once again and my plan is to make this really happen. The secret? I started reading writing guidebooks a few months back and all of the books have one staying theme: You have to keep doing it and think it as a job or you won’t succeed. I am going to be blogging more than ever just you wait!

So, what is my ambitious plan?

Mondays: I will publish review post on Reviews From Idiot

Wednesdays: Wanderlust Wednesdays are back! Post every week in Go Travel Global

Fridays: Blog post about living as a writer in my writer’s blog Lost Writer Viivi

Rest of the days I will be posting on this blog. That’s a lot of blogging, right? In fact, if you did read that carefully it means blogging every day of the week for whole year. 

Don’t look me whit those judging eyes! You can think that I will get bored after a few days if you want. When I once decide to really do something there is no stopping me! Lately, I have been thinking a lot and come to the decision that even more than traveling I want to do blogging and writing. My content may not be perfect yet but I think my English skills and writing skills in general get better every time I write something.

Many people do daily vlogging nowadays so can we please start a new trend of daily blogging?

This seems crazy but hey that’s who I am!

Are you ready to start this crazy year with me?

With love,

Viivi Who Fell For Blogging…

She was bird without wings

Sixteenth of December
She was bird, she was cat, she was endless sky with million bats. She lived bravely but scared of everything. Her days were full of sun and moon, sleepy days and sleepless nights. Negatives and positives circled around the body of her. A lifetime of opposites being all she got. Flying like a bird and laying down like a cat. She became everything a small girl could be and still she wasn’t quite like people believed.

She wanted to fly and fly and fly. But there was always that one risk: falling down, breaking wings. Nothing could stop her from dreaming of it. Those beautiful skies full of birds. Huge wings shaking in the wind taking them around the world again and again. She wanted to be like them, a bird with wings so strong she could keep flying and never land. But it wasn’t possible. Not every bird know how to fly. Not every bird can be on the sky. Her wings were cut off, disappeared, taken from her. She was a bird without wings doomed to live forever in the world of those going to die.

She missed the sky but she loved the ground. Sleeping through the day like cat was dream achieved. Doing nothing. Living without purpose. It was perfect until it was not. One day, two days, three days she was okay. Sleep, relax and see dreams. But days four and five and six she lost her will of being silly. Day after day it became harder and harder to stand back up and be like a bird. Sleeping like a cat not knowing about the world felt just fine. But not anyone can live that forever. You start to wonder. What if? What has she missed? Is this all I truly have? Could I have flown if I wings still had?

 

(This text was written in ten minutes without thinking anything. I did almost no editing and decided to publish it just like this. Nowadays, I call myself a writer. I even study creative writing in uni. But my problem: I write in Finnish. This blog is in English. In my opinion, it’s sometimes good to publish texts that aren’t so great or ready. Maybe in a few years, I can return to this one and see how long way I have gone with my English skills? Or so I hope…) 

With love,

Viivi Scared of Writing

 

The first not a date

Fifth of December
I remember the first time someone asked me out. I was eighteen, socially awkward and had never dated anyone. Nothing has changed except my age. At that time I was attending this high school psychology summer course while he was from the Swedish course class next to ours. First time we spoke he asked if he could sit next to me and I had nothing against it.

The next two weeks went by us sitting side by side during the short breaks. I was always listening to music with one headphone on and he kept reading quickly changing books. It was nice I have to admit. I didn’t have to sit alone while everyone else had a friend with them. Then one time he asked me what music I was listening to and after that, we had small conversations every now and then.

He was odd but so was I. One of the last breaks we spent together he started reading love poems in Germany for me. It was probably a sign of interest towards me that anyone else could have seen. I didn’t.

During the last day and last break of my course, I told him that we wouldn’t see anymore. He asked me out. I had no idea that he would do it. And even now I am not sure if he truly wanted to go on date or just see me again as a friend. He asked if I would like to come to the library someday with him. Then I promised to ask him as a friend on Facebook but I never did because I forgot his name before I had time.

I still think of him sometimes even if I never felt anything special towards him. He was the first boy who asked me out –probably- and also the only boy who had asked me out for a few years. Never before had I known that anyone would truly be interested in me.

Next time or better said the next few times happened during my Japan trip. I was never sure if they were interested in me or if it was just a friendly gesture. It was never “Would you like to go out with me?” But isn’t asking someone for coffee kind of the same thing? I have no idea so I have never been sure.

After my Japan trip, it started to happen more occasionally. Not often but every now and then. I realized that when I was traveling other people would get interested in me. Maybe I looked more beautiful or free than back at home? I have no idea why but I gained more attention as a traveler and amongst foreigners than back at home in Finland.

At some point, I came to the closure that it must be that “inner beauty” people so often talk about. I look better when I am happy and free of all worries. Or maybe all those people have just been some creeps that prey on silly traveler girls?

With love,

Undateable Viivi

Poem Rant

Third of December
Last weekend was my second time on the creative writing university course I am currently attending to. The theme of this second weekend was poems. My relationship with poems could be described as awkward and almost hostile:

I hate poems. I always end up writing poems. For some odd reason, other people love the poems I write. They love the poems I don’t want to write.

Reading poems isn’t for me. I know there is a lot of people in this world who share my opinion. They think that poetry is boring, too hard to understand and not for them. Only the last claim describes me.

Poems aren’t boring. You just have to find the right ones. Even music and especially rap songs would be poems if we wrote them down and forgot the sound. And who doesn’t listen to music?

Anyone can understand poems. If you say that I am wrong, then you have never even tried. Find a poem and read it ten times. That’s it. Now you understand it. There is no one way to read poems. Everyone understand them differently depending on their own mind and life experiences. Sometimes the poets can’t even understand their own poems so you shouldn’t stress too much. Just read a poem and let your own thoughts fly.

Even if you think that the poem is deathly boring. Last weekend taught me that it is okay to hate poems. As long as you are feeling something the poems are doing their job right.

tomatoes, you know, are real
that is, if they remain tomatoes
if they try to be melons, however,
they then become fakes
though everything and everyone is real
in their own way,
it seems we always try so hard to become fakes
-Mitsuo Aida

I know I started this text by saying that I hate poems. Maybe it is a lie? My lacking English is on the way. The better way to say this may be “I hate poetry”. I am not sure. I hate poems but then again there are poems I love more than anything else. Like that Mitsuo Aida’s tomato poem above.

I first saw this poem at Mitsuo Aida museum in Tokyo, Japan. It was written in Japanese and this is just the translation. I have no idea if it is as good in Japanese but like this, it described my feeling at that time. Before going to Japan I had tried to be a melon. I applied to university, tried my best to create a normal life and just played this role of someone I was expected to be.

Then I went to Japan. For the first time in a long while, I felt like I was a tomato again. I had to buy a postcard with this text in it. I think I lost it during the three months I spent in Japan but I still can’t forget this poem.

So, I don’t hate poems. Some poems touch my heart, make me smile or occasionally even laugh out loud. It’s awkward and maybe a little hostile but I love poems and writing them.

With love,

Hard To Understand Viivi

First snow blues

Second of December
First snow. I want to hate it. It means winter, coldness, wearing too many clothes all the time and never going outside. Snow means one year is coming to the end too soon. What there is not to hate? And still, I am like a kid. Running around trying to catch the snowflakes with my tongue. Everything turns white and looks so magical. People are laughing after long dark autumn and children running around making snow angels. What there is not to love? How could I hate this?

 

(This is text I wrote earlier this year during the first snow. I wanted to publish it but I just didn’t have anything else to say. So, here it is. Why do you hate and love first snow?)

With love,

Childish Viivi

 

First of December

I haven’t been busy but I have no time. Because I am some kind of stupid idiot, I have decided to study two university degrees at the same time. Why did I ever think that this would be a good idea? I study creative writing. It is my passion. It is my thing. But then I decided to continue my business studies that I declared as too simple and boring for me.

It’s partly because of money. Finland’s government helps financially those who study in “real university”. My creative writing is only an open university. A writer isn’t a job in Finland. Or so most of us seem to think. So, why I try so hard to be something not possible? Why is writing my only real passion? Even traveling seems dull and irrelevant next to days used writing never-ending stories.

I don’t have time for my blogs. Maybe trying to write three blogs wasn’t possible in the first place? All the inspiration I used to have is now written for other people who order blog articles from me. I miss writing for myself. Writing whatever I want and without worrying about grammar and being 100% correct.

This is why I am writing now. This December I will write more. After New Year I will start normal rhythm. Travel blog once a week. Random posts here whenever I want. Photos to my photo blog as often as possible.

Today is the first day of December. 24 days till Christmas. Maybe I have all the elements to do writing Chrismas calender? 24 posts. Can I do it?

With love,

Hopeful Viivi