Leaving everything for the last minute…

Dear readers,

today I’m trying to write learning diary that I should have started a long time ago and continue doing during the last two months. I haven’t written even one sentence before realizing today that I have only two more days before the deadline. Does this ever happen to you? Or am I the only one who struggles with doing everything last minute?

It’s impossible to recall what we did during the weekend my creative writing course’s last weekend took place. “Creative processes” that’s the subject but I can’t come up even one thing I learned. Not even one idea to add to my learning diary. Neither have I any idea have I even been writing in April or May.

This has to be some kind of punishment for never doing anything on time!

Usually, faking is my specialty. I survived high school with above average scores doing only the minimal amount of homework and never studying to tests if I wasn’t interested (and I was only interested in psychology and writing…) My life has been full of events not requiring me to give my everything for them. After high school, I ended up studying business: I was one of the best but literally skipped half of the classes. Now I’m working on my own but even that doesn’t challenge me enough.

And then I started studying creative writing in open university. Still seems like a dream. For the first time, I really wanted to do everything I could to be the best I can. But getting the full scores doing nothing just didn’t encourage me enough. Maybe this should be the happiest moment of my life? The best of best Finnish creative writing teachers liked my writing enough to give me great feedback and best possible scores! Why can’t I enjoy this moment?

Easy has never been for me. Normal has never been for me. I get bored and that will end killing me. I’m not even kidding…

So, now after not trying and never doing anything I’m getting punished. And even then I know that I will survive with good enough results. It’s sad to live life always trying just enough to keep going but never enough to really get invested in anything.

But I’m not giving up. I never give up. 

Sorry for this odd diary entry. But expect more of them in the future! I’m trying to be real so it means getting my messy thought on the blog…

With love,
Lost Viivi

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Adjusting to daily blogging

I’m proud of myself. I have only skipped writing a post twice during this month. The goal was to have at most 3 unsuccessful writing days. There are still days left but this is looking fine!

However, I have to adjust my schedule a little bit. Having too many long posts to write isn’t that good idea and I’m missing my 10 minutes thoughts series where I just ramble about nothing important. The new schedule is here!

Daily blogging schedule:
[Mon: Reviews, Tues: BusinessWed: TravelThu:  Lifestyle
Fri: WritingSat: ReviewsSun: LifestyleDaily: Photographs]

Looks unreal to have post ideas for every day of the week but at the same time, I’m loving this… Imagine if you could just spend all your days writing blog posts? How could I make that possible? Any ideas? Well, for some time now I just have to keep doing my other lovely jobs. No complaining!

With love,
Lost Viivi

Photos of my April

We’re going to start a monthly tradition on this blog! Cool right? It will be posting photo diary of my life during the month. Usually, I will try to time this photo diary for the last Sunday of every month but this time (like you can see) we will start a little late.

Keep in mind that I’m not a professional photographer. In fact, my skills are still close to zero and don’t even mention my editing fails… But this photo diary is also a way to learn new by taking me to the edge of my own comfort zone. Who knows what I will learn after trying to take photos for this diary every month! Let’s start…

Japanese food in Finland

I started my month by traveling to Turku and spending a few days in my friend’s place. We went to eat Japanese meal. I haven’t eaten anything so good for a long time! It made me remember why I’m so eager to return to Japan later this year. Tokyo here I come in a few months.

Blogger in winter

After returning back home from Turku, I only had a few days before leaving for my dreamy holiday in Turkey. Like you can see from the photo above, the weather in Finland wasn’t the ideal at that time but the forecast was promising almost 30 degrees of hotness for my time in Alanya. A perfect escape from cold wintery Finland!

Beach life in Alanya

I have to admit that I wasn’t expecting a lot from Alanya. In Finland, it has kind of trashy reputation and my flight was terrible! (I will be telling that story in my travel blog in two weeks.) Despite my belief that I could just relax on my all-inclusive hotel, I fell for Alanya while driving through it towards my accommodation. It was sunny, it was exotic, it was like a paradise. See the photo of that beach? How could you not like Alanya?

After sunbathing and writing for a few days, I decided to update my Insta after a too long time. Taking photos just isn’t my thing and uploading them to Instagram just stressed me out. I would need someone to edit my photos, come up with clever texts and publish them… Anyone wanna do not paid internship? Just kidding!

Beautiful beach in Turkey

My plan was to just eat, swim in the beautiful pool and read books during this holiday. It was also going to be a writing retreat. All of those plans happened – kind of. I just didn’t take in count the long walking trip to adventure around Alanya. Nothing can keep my inner traveler in check and so even during relaxation holiday like this, I kept hearing the call of the sea, unknown streets and city I was staying for the first time. I walked tens of kilometers but there’re no regrets.

Another thing I did during my two weeks in Alanya was going to see the sunset from the beach. Only one huge street separated my hotel and the waterfront from each other. I would go to eat dinner, then walk to the beach and walk back to have dessert after the sun disappeared behind mountains and water. Usually, I was one of the only people left there. So quiet. Just me writing poems to my notebook or walking in the chilly sea water.

drinks and

Okay, this book has kind of funny story behind it. I wrote a lot during my first week in the hotel. Blogging, stories, and poems. At some point one of the hotel staff members asked me could I maybe tell him what I’m always writing. I have no idea how but he knew that I was blogging. Maybe I’m just so easy to read? Well, after that I found these things from my room. So embarrassing… I mean I know my travel blog is starting to be kind of “a big deal” but still as shy anxious Finn things like this just are too much for me. Could I return to the anonymous blogging? Please?

Blogger writing with food

And here is another photo from my perfect writer lifestyle! Food, good music and writing as long or as much as I want. There wouldn’t be a better way to live your life if you ask my opinion.

blogger drinking Starbucks

Then I returned home feeling unreal. After you have lived the dream for two weeks it feels odd to come back but at the same time I was full of motivation. Being put and doing nothing isn’t my thing. My life has to be moving all the time even if it means me being deadly tired. In fact, from this holiday I found the strenght to start daily blogging again!

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Remember the snowy photo that was taken just before I left for my trip? If not just roll back up and look at it for a minute… I was away for two weeks and this photo is how it was looking in Finland when I returned! Now snow. No cold. No winter anymore. Welcome to Finnish weather… Our seasons change in one night. I’m not even kidding.

pretty sneakers and Finnish nature

That was literally my month. The last week went by trying to set back home and working my ass off. However, I also made plans. These plans make my blogging possible and take me slowly towards my goals. (Who knows what those goals even are…) Then I started this month with a power I have never felt. I’m ready to take control of my own life! It’s the first time for me being this excited about living a normal life without traveling.

How are you? Any big plans to make your spring great? Like always all comments are more than welcome!

With love,
Not So Lost Viivi

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Daily blogging schedule:
[Mon: Reviews, Tues: Business, Wed: TravelThu: Reviews
Fri: WritingSat: ReviewsSun: LifestyleDaily: Photographs]

 

Daily blogging again!

I’m trying it again and this time I have a plan. Who knows if it will come true…

In January I promised myself to start daily blogging but then life happened like usually. It only took a few short months for my life to turn upside down. Dropping out from my university, taking the creative writing studies more seriously and deciding to go full time as a writer. And then in addition to all that I decided to start my own company.

It truly has been busy.

But then I spent two weeks holiday in Turkey last month. My life has been full of travels around the world for two years but the last time I went on real relaxation holiday was ages ago. Relaxing under a sun in all-inclusive resort made me realize the truth: I love writing but I want to be a blogger.

My dream has as long as I remember been to write a book. This shy awkward girl has had a head full of stories and plot ideas starting from the kindergarten. It’s still my dream but I’m growing and realizing more things about myself. Earlier this year I talked about not wanting to be full-time traveler even if that had been my aim for over a year. This is similar realization.

I love creative writing but that’s not something I want to do as a full-time job. Neither do I want to continue forever writing blog posts and content for others. Blogging. I seem to drift towards it again and again. It’s hard but so are all the best things in our lives. For some reason writing freely these silly things talking about myself, traveling, writing and books are just like a dream.

Could I do this as my job someday in the future?
Maybe, maybe not.
To find out I have to keep writing and that’s why I’m back at this daily blogging thing. Even if this never goes anywhere, I can later return back to these days thinking that I truly kept doing what I love despite opinions of everyone else.

So, are you ready? New posts should be coming every day!
I have promised myself that I can skip 3 days every month. If I don’t follow that rule, it means surviving the next month without any sweets. Terrible, right?

Here is my blogging schedule that may change at any time:

Mondays: Book reviews
Tuesdays: Life as a wannabe girlboss
Wednesdays: Travel blogging
Thursday: Writing my review blog
Friday: Blog post about creative writing
Saturday: More reviews
Sunday: Posts here on my lost side blog

Anyone else wanna try this impossible challenge with me? Like always all comments are more than welcome. Have a nice day (or night in my case)!

With love,
Lost Viivi

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Wednesdays: Travel, Thursdays: Reviews
Fridays: Writing, Saturdays: Reviews
Sundays: Lifestyle, Daily: Photographs

 

Taking myself on Valentine’s date

It was Valentine’s day yesterday and as the forever single lady, there were only a few options for me… On Monday I took myself to nice date consisting of travel to Finland’s capital Helsinki, chai latte, wandering in a bookstore and writing in a museum. And yesterday I went to my friend’s place where we made a chocolate cake and watched Spider-Man: Homecoming movie. If you ask me that’s a lot better than going on a normal date!

I had been stressing Monday for almost a week because I don’t do good with social situations and I was traveling to Helsinki for a business meeting. (It wasn’t really a proper business meeting but it sounds cool so we are calling it that!) I knew beforehand that it was going to be easygoing, fun and not scary at all but that doesn’t help my nerves. Whatever I’m meeting my friends for a movie, new person during traveling or anyone else, there is no stopping my brain from imagining all the things that could go wrong.

Like predicted I survived the morning meeting and had super nice experience that left me smiling. It was just a good reminder that I’m finally going in my life towards something cool. After realizing that I had still like four hours left to spend by myself in Helsinki, it was time for the “go for a date by yourself plan”.

First stop was, of course, idyllic cafe and my normal choice of chai latte. I wrote a little and texted with good friends. Then my plan was to visit bookstores and a few museums. This plan backfired a little because I started from the bookstores. Taking me to any place with books is a bad idea. I ended up buying two writing guidebooks and one “literature dating guide”. All of them really necessary purchases, right?

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After two hours of staring at cool books and having a hard time not buying everything, I didn’t have time for more than one museum.

I went to modern art museum Kiasma and wandered around there for the remaining time. I stopped for a few times and wrote whatever came to my mind. Museums are the best places for finding interesting character inspiration! I mean seeing three old ladies nordic walking inside the museum is definitely worth of writing. And let’s just not talk about me getting lifelong traumas after I walked into a room just to see a huge screen showing video of someone coloring man’s penis with finger paints…

Sometimes I just don’t understand art!

To end my own date with something great, I bought another chai latte and read my new dating guide while waiting for the bus. Have you ever gone on a date by yourself? Or what would be the perfect date for you?

With love,

Romantic Viivi

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Maybe tomorrow. Next week. Soon.

Days go by too fast and I’m left behind wondering where all the time went. So many things I want to do, so many I just have to get done. My time isn’t enough but that may be because most of my weeks are full of writing, reading and talking with friends. The important things wait in my room half finished and never done. I don’t forget them but my mind just keeps pushing them aside.

I will continue tomorrow. Next week. Soon.

A room full of papers with small scribbles, pens in the colors of the rainbow all around my messy floor and books. Books in straight lines on too many shelves, books under my bed forgotten after falling asleep in between pages and books all over the room just sticking from the most surprising places. Stories that are written by me and by the bestselling authors next to each other taking over my bed and nightstand.

I have been sleeping in my guest bed for months.

There’s always music. Either my big speakers are blasting the latest pop songs or then you can hear secretly listened to music from all around the world through my headphones. Whatever is the situation you can hear some kind of music in my life. When I’m sad, happy, writing, lost, planning my next trips, reading, working, cleaning, desperate or escaping from my own life.

Music is my medicine, inspiration and coping mechanism. 

With love,

Viivi who is prisoner in her life

10 Minutes Thoughts is my blogging series of non-edited writing. I count 10 minutes and write as much as I can and about whatever is in my mind. Sorry for the grammar errors, random thoughts and thing that won’t make sense but this is the real me.

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Tea, thoughts, and snowy nights

It’s snowing hard and I’m staring out into the darkness. I have tried to start this post for last two weeks. It’s hard to write daily.

I’m sitting on a plane flying to London.
I’m staring the sea from my hostel bed.
I’m sipping chai latte in small colorful cafe.
I’m staring out to the airport runway from my hotel room.
I’m trying to write something, anything in my own bed.

None of those sentences started this post. It took me two weeks to find the right words. It’s snowing. I can’t leave my mom’s place and return home because there is too much snow. I wrote a book review on Tuesday and travel post yesterday on Wednesday. I’m on writing daily streak once again. Maybe it will get easier? Probably not.

Lately, I have been listening to too many motivational speeches and spent hours just reading motivational quotes from Pinterest. Something inside of me wants to be that person who wakes up early every morning to do productive activities. I want to write thousands of words every day and finish a novel in 30 days. If there was a way to stop this addiction I have towards daydreaming for hours, you could see me as the first one lining up to test the cure.

I’m lazy.

It’s simple. I’m lazy, unproductive and keen to use a time for unnecessary things.

Maybe it’s not a bad thing? If I just could make money daydreaming. And maybe I can. My mind is writers mind. Whatever I do and where ever I go, my mind finds new story ideas and creates new characters based on the people I meet or see. Daydreaming. My pen has to move faster so I can make this thing work. Memories and thoughts are so quick to disappear. It’s hard to find paper and pen when you could just lay in your bed dreaming of new worlds. But maybe I can?

This post has once again been a mess. That’s who I’m so getting used to it. Random thoughts and quickly changing subjects. This is my blog and I do whatever I want. As long as I think like that, the writing won’t be that hard. My texts, stories and the words I write are made for me, not for anyone else. Let’s hope I will write again tomorrow. Who knows…

With love,

Lost Viivi

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Low point in my life

You know you have a problem when your procrastination has found a totally new level of stupidity. You are leaving away for over a week tomorrow morning but haven’t even packed yet because you’re stuck watching coin pusher and claw machine videos from the internet. Why the heck coin pusher and claw machines of all the videos you could possibly enjoy? It’s so addicting and especially when you should be packing, working and cleaning.

I was doing so good with my daily blogging. For a week and a half. I posted every day and it was so much fun. Then I decided to skip one day. Just one day… That’s not a bad thing, right? But then that one day changed to two days and now almost to three days and it feels again so hard to come up with ideas for posts. Look at me, I’m just complaining. It’s the easiest form of writing: bad feelings and stupid worries.

But at least I am traveling tomorrow. And my week has been full of meeting my best friends. I have written a lot and worked regularly. Everything should be good but it’s just hard to get anything done. It’s almost midnight and I should still do so many things before going to sleep. Maybe just one more claw machine video. Ten more minutes and then I will continue my chores… or not…

But aren’t those videos just so addicting? Now I want to play some arcade games.

With love,

Viivi with problem

I can’t skip a day…

Hello everyone!

I didn’t know what to write today. I’m sleeping on my friend’s floor, the day is almost changing and I have promised to blog every day. It’s easy to write posts when you have one specific subject but this blog is something different. “Write about anything that’s on your mind.” So I was thinking when starting this specific blog. I was sure it would be easy but I was not.

How to come up with blog text idea from scratches? The only solution I know is to just write. Write even if it sounds stupid, and keep writing even if your whole mind is empty. They teach us this technique in university when learning about creative writing. Usually, you are not meant to show these texts for people. You’re writing for yourself. Just for yourself. And now I’m writing for everyone who knows me and for so many people who have no idea who I’m.

Okay, write about anything that’s currently on your mind. What’s in my mind? What am I thinking?

We watched today the last part of the Lord of the Rings. I had almost forgotten how much I love that movie. The plot, the characters and, of course, Legolas. Don’t we all love Legolas? If you don’t, there is something really wrong with your brain (just kidding).

Maybe I should list all the characters I have fallen in love with? That would be a long post. It would start with characters from children’s series. Robin Hood from the Disney movie and Odd from that cartoon series Code Lyoko. There would be Legolas and Draco Malfoy, Han Solo from Star Wars and let’s not forget the endless list of anime and manga characters. I always find that one character and their story more appealing than the movie or book as a whole.

Sorry for this odd, short and random posts. I promised to write daily but I never said these would be quality texts. But at least you will always learn something new about me and get a sneak peek to my brain. Do you ever have a hard time finding subjects for your blog posts? Or have you ever tried this style of just writing about anything and nothing in your mind?

With love,

Nostalgic Viivi

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Finding that blogging motivation

Hello everyone!

My first week of daily blogging is over and it has been amazing. Like truly amazing. Before starting I was thinking that writing daily to my blogs would be one big nightmare. I was expecting it to be super hard, almost impossible and me to miss days right away. That didn’t happen. For the last six days, I have been blogging every day and it has been a bliss.

The motivation and excitement I had during the first year of blogging have returned.

There are so many new ideas, subjects for posts and things I want to share with the world. My mind is full of thoughts that want to get out. Especially my newest blogs and writing them is just so wonderful. No need to stress what others think because I don’t have that many readers on those blogs and the subjects are something I’m passionate about. Writing, books, movies, and music. I could talk about them forever.

After writing every day for the last week, one thought has been constantly in my mind… I want to do this. I want to wake up late and start my day by writing. Then I want to continue by writing some more. Writing blogs, writing stories, writing anything and all the time. Reading books, listening to good music and binge-watching TV series. At some point going out and seeing my friends or sitting alone in small cafes in foreigner cities writing about the people walking past.

I will keep blogging every day next week, week after that, month after that and until the end of this year. This is a promise. Even if I am bad at keeping them, this one won’t break. How do I know?

When I once truly decide something (and when someone tells me that I can’t do it), nothing can stop me. Writing a blog, daily blogging and working as a full-time writer are things like that.

NOTHING CAN STOP ME!

With love

Determined Viivi