Leaving everything for the last minute…

Dear readers,

today I’m trying to write learning diary that I should have started a long time ago and continue doing during the last two months. I haven’t written even one sentence before realizing today that I have only two more days before the deadline. Does this ever happen to you? Or am I the only one who struggles with doing everything last minute?

It’s impossible to recall what we did during the weekend my creative writing course’s last weekend took place. “Creative processes” that’s the subject but I can’t come up even one thing I learned. Not even one idea to add to my learning diary. Neither have I any idea have I even been writing in April or May.

This has to be some kind of punishment for never doing anything on time!

Usually, faking is my specialty. I survived high school with above average scores doing only the minimal amount of homework and never studying to tests if I wasn’t interested (and I was only interested in psychology and writing…) My life has been full of events not requiring me to give my everything for them. After high school, I ended up studying business: I was one of the best but literally skipped half of the classes. Now I’m working on my own but even that doesn’t challenge me enough.

And then I started studying creative writing in open university. Still seems like a dream. For the first time, I really wanted to do everything I could to be the best I can. But getting the full scores doing nothing just didn’t encourage me enough. Maybe this should be the happiest moment of my life? The best of best Finnish creative writing teachers liked my writing enough to give me great feedback and best possible scores! Why can’t I enjoy this moment?

Easy has never been for me. Normal has never been for me. I get bored and that will end killing me. I’m not even kidding…

So, now after not trying and never doing anything I’m getting punished. And even then I know that I will survive with good enough results. It’s sad to live life always trying just enough to keep going but never enough to really get invested in anything.

But I’m not giving up. I never give up. 

Sorry for this odd diary entry. But expect more of them in the future! I’m trying to be real so it means getting my messy thought on the blog…

With love,
Lost Viivi

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Daily blogging again!

I’m trying it again and this time I have a plan. Who knows if it will come true…

In January I promised myself to start daily blogging but then life happened like usually. It only took a few short months for my life to turn upside down. Dropping out from my university, taking the creative writing studies more seriously and deciding to go full time as a writer. And then in addition to all that I decided to start my own company.

It truly has been busy.

But then I spent two weeks holiday in Turkey last month. My life has been full of travels around the world for two years but the last time I went on real relaxation holiday was ages ago. Relaxing under a sun in all-inclusive resort made me realize the truth: I love writing but I want to be a blogger.

My dream has as long as I remember been to write a book. This shy awkward girl has had a head full of stories and plot ideas starting from the kindergarten. It’s still my dream but I’m growing and realizing more things about myself. Earlier this year I talked about not wanting to be full-time traveler even if that had been my aim for over a year. This is similar realization.

I love creative writing but that’s not something I want to do as a full-time job. Neither do I want to continue forever writing blog posts and content for others. Blogging. I seem to drift towards it again and again. It’s hard but so are all the best things in our lives. For some reason writing freely these silly things talking about myself, traveling, writing and books are just like a dream.

Could I do this as my job someday in the future?
Maybe, maybe not.
To find out I have to keep writing and that’s why I’m back at this daily blogging thing. Even if this never goes anywhere, I can later return back to these days thinking that I truly kept doing what I love despite opinions of everyone else.

So, are you ready? New posts should be coming every day!
I have promised myself that I can skip 3 days every month. If I don’t follow that rule, it means surviving the next month without any sweets. Terrible, right?

Here is my blogging schedule that may change at any time:

Mondays: Book reviews
Tuesdays: Life as a wannabe girlboss
Wednesdays: Travel blogging
Thursday: Writing my review blog
Friday: Blog post about creative writing
Saturday: More reviews
Sunday: Posts here on my lost side blog

Anyone else wanna try this impossible challenge with me? Like always all comments are more than welcome. Have a nice day (or night in my case)!

With love,
Lost Viivi

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Daily blogging schedule:
Mondays: Reviews, Tuesdays: Business
Wednesdays: Travel, Thursdays: Reviews
Fridays: Writing, Saturdays: Reviews
Sundays: Lifestyle, Daily: Photographs

 

Secret Projects and Dreams Come True

Lately, I haven’t been blogging daily like I promised. But this time my reason is really valid. I have been keeping a secret from you. In fact, the last month has gone by me working on this secret project and let me tell you that it has turned me to trainwreck but also like a too excited child. Life is surprising.

So what’s my secret project?

This girl is going to have her own business!

Yeah, I’m not lying. Working as freelancer writer has gone so well recently that I have to start my own company to make everything easier. Sounds crazy. I’m 22 years old lost traveler and writer who still doesn’t know what she wants to do with her life. And soon I’m going to have my own business to maintain.

Is this the worst idea ever? Probably.
Have I ever let bad ideas stop me? No.
So, let’s see how this goes or how I fail!

It’s crazy to think that I’m almost living my dream. Most of the people of my age in Finland are still studying or working somewhere not so glamorous. On the other hand, I’m doing the things I have been dreaming for so long. My days will be full of writing. Mostly my own stories and then blog posts for others. I can work from anywhere. Maybe I will be next month in London, month after that in Tokyo and then just relax at home for a few weeks. Nothing is impossible anymore.

If you have been reading my blogs for some time, you may already know my story. But for others here is a small recap:

When I was still studying for my veterinary university exams, most of the free time I had during my prep school went by reading blogs. It was the first time I realized that some people really lived following their own rules. I wanted to be a nomad who travels around the world with only her laptop. After that year of studying, I ditched my life and went to Japan for three months. 

Returning home from Japan was terrible for my mental health. A few months went by and I started my travel blog to survive the normal life. A few more terrible choices made because of the society’s expectations and escaping to my adventures around the world every possible moment later, I ended up picking my own path. Studying creative writing in open university, writing for others and having too many blogs on my own.

Now I’m here almost three years after my dream started on those dull days studying biology, chemistry, and physics aka all the things I hate.

The fun thing is that I feel like this is only the beginning!

With love,

Viivi Living Her Dream

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Maybe tomorrow. Next week. Soon.

Days go by too fast and I’m left behind wondering where all the time went. So many things I want to do, so many I just have to get done. My time isn’t enough but that may be because most of my weeks are full of writing, reading and talking with friends. The important things wait in my room half finished and never done. I don’t forget them but my mind just keeps pushing them aside.

I will continue tomorrow. Next week. Soon.

A room full of papers with small scribbles, pens in the colors of the rainbow all around my messy floor and books. Books in straight lines on too many shelves, books under my bed forgotten after falling asleep in between pages and books all over the room just sticking from the most surprising places. Stories that are written by me and by the bestselling authors next to each other taking over my bed and nightstand.

I have been sleeping in my guest bed for months.

There’s always music. Either my big speakers are blasting the latest pop songs or then you can hear secretly listened to music from all around the world through my headphones. Whatever is the situation you can hear some kind of music in my life. When I’m sad, happy, writing, lost, planning my next trips, reading, working, cleaning, desperate or escaping from my own life.

Music is my medicine, inspiration and coping mechanism. 

With love,

Viivi who is prisoner in her life

10 Minutes Thoughts is my blogging series of non-edited writing. I count 10 minutes and write as much as I can and about whatever is in my mind. Sorry for the grammar errors, random thoughts and thing that won’t make sense but this is the real me.

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Tea, thoughts, and snowy nights

It’s snowing hard and I’m staring out into the darkness. I have tried to start this post for last two weeks. It’s hard to write daily.

I’m sitting on a plane flying to London.
I’m staring the sea from my hostel bed.
I’m sipping chai latte in small colorful cafe.
I’m staring out to the airport runway from my hotel room.
I’m trying to write something, anything in my own bed.

None of those sentences started this post. It took me two weeks to find the right words. It’s snowing. I can’t leave my mom’s place and return home because there is too much snow. I wrote a book review on Tuesday and travel post yesterday on Wednesday. I’m on writing daily streak once again. Maybe it will get easier? Probably not.

Lately, I have been listening to too many motivational speeches and spent hours just reading motivational quotes from Pinterest. Something inside of me wants to be that person who wakes up early every morning to do productive activities. I want to write thousands of words every day and finish a novel in 30 days. If there was a way to stop this addiction I have towards daydreaming for hours, you could see me as the first one lining up to test the cure.

I’m lazy.

It’s simple. I’m lazy, unproductive and keen to use a time for unnecessary things.

Maybe it’s not a bad thing? If I just could make money daydreaming. And maybe I can. My mind is writers mind. Whatever I do and where ever I go, my mind finds new story ideas and creates new characters based on the people I meet or see. Daydreaming. My pen has to move faster so I can make this thing work. Memories and thoughts are so quick to disappear. It’s hard to find paper and pen when you could just lay in your bed dreaming of new worlds. But maybe I can?

This post has once again been a mess. That’s who I’m so getting used to it. Random thoughts and quickly changing subjects. This is my blog and I do whatever I want. As long as I think like that, the writing won’t be that hard. My texts, stories and the words I write are made for me, not for anyone else. Let’s hope I will write again tomorrow. Who knows…

With love,

Lost Viivi

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Finding that blogging motivation

Hello everyone!

My first week of daily blogging is over and it has been amazing. Like truly amazing. Before starting I was thinking that writing daily to my blogs would be one big nightmare. I was expecting it to be super hard, almost impossible and me to miss days right away. That didn’t happen. For the last six days, I have been blogging every day and it has been a bliss.

The motivation and excitement I had during the first year of blogging have returned.

There are so many new ideas, subjects for posts and things I want to share with the world. My mind is full of thoughts that want to get out. Especially my newest blogs and writing them is just so wonderful. No need to stress what others think because I don’t have that many readers on those blogs and the subjects are something I’m passionate about. Writing, books, movies, and music. I could talk about them forever.

After writing every day for the last week, one thought has been constantly in my mind… I want to do this. I want to wake up late and start my day by writing. Then I want to continue by writing some more. Writing blogs, writing stories, writing anything and all the time. Reading books, listening to good music and binge-watching TV series. At some point going out and seeing my friends or sitting alone in small cafes in foreigner cities writing about the people walking past.

I will keep blogging every day next week, week after that, month after that and until the end of this year. This is a promise. Even if I am bad at keeping them, this one won’t break. How do I know?

When I once truly decide something (and when someone tells me that I can’t do it), nothing can stop me. Writing a blog, daily blogging and working as a full-time writer are things like that.

NOTHING CAN STOP ME!

With love

Determined Viivi

Mission Impossible: Daily Blogging

The year 2018 has started and I’m ready to fail in my impossible mission for a lazy person like me. Yesterday was the first day of my daily blogging for one year challenge. I have shared this with a few friends and Twitter. Most people have wished me good luck, others called me crazy. My own mind is mostly just screaming out of fear, stress, and excitement. I love blogging so why shouldn’t I do it a daily thing?

This is probably a stupid idea and my history as a blogger has more than enough proof. I have had several blogs but all of them have died after the first year. Last year I promised to write twice a week and then after failing that once a week. Do I even need to admit that I failed in that too? Now my mind just decides that writing once a day is a perfect plan. Crazy, huh?

Yesterday I wrote the first post on my brand new review blog. It’s one of the things I am most amazed about. So easy to just write when you have no one who wants to read. No matter what you say or if the language sucks. There will be only a few people reading and if they don’t like it, they will just skip your blog. I haven’t felt like that for a long time. Not after I told my family about my travel blog and realized that it has over a thousand readers. Now I have close to three thousand people following my blog and writing anything feels impossible.

I am scared of failing.

Does anyone know how to get over these fears? Maybe the only way is to just keep writing. Just keep swimming, just keep swimming. (I may have watched Finding Dory a few days ago…) Last autumn my university creative writing teacher got me hooked on reading writing guidebooks. That’s probably the biggest reason why this crazy idea of daily blogging came into my mind. There is one theme that keeps repeating itself in these books: Just write every day without caring for your inner voice telling that it’s a bad idea. 

Okay, no book says it like that. It’s always told more poetically and with fewer awkward words between. But the idea is same. If you keep writing consistently, it gets easier. Or well not easier but doing it everyday changes to routine and routine is often easy despite the task being hard.

I’m rambling while writing, aren’t I? You better get used to it. Writing every day also means writing without editing. Some people would accuse me of favoring quantity over quality. During all this creative writing I have studied during the last four months, I have learned to approach my blogging from a new point of view. The more you write the better you get at it. Later on, we can see if that’s a good thing.

If you are new here, welcome. I’m Viivi and I’m one big mess who owns too many blogs for her own good. Right now, I also try to live my dream life and that has killed my sense of reality. Feel free to follow this blog so you can read more odd posts or see my daily posts in LostViivi.com

What are your plans for the year 2018? Anything as crazy as mine?

With love,

Viivi with a plan (aka a bad idea)

2018, Year of Blogging

2018 is almost here. In my travel blog’s last post I mentioned that at the start of the year 2017 I promised myself it would be my year of traveling. Surprisingly, it was a quite easy promise to keep. Now it’s time to make my New Year’s resolution for 2018. Wanna know what I have decided? Or maybe the title of this post already gave it away.

The year 2018 is going to be my year of blogging.

If you are an avid reader of my blogs, you know that I am a blogging addict. It all started with my travel blog. Then I created photography blog to learn photo editing. After that, this side blog was born. And I have been talking about starting review blog for forever (I even have like 5 post written for it). In addition to all these, I have wanted to start writing a blog about my adventures as an almost full-time writer for some time now.

That makes 3 blogs and 2 blogs I would like to start at the beginning of 2018. Like I said… I am an addict.

During my travel year 2017, blogging became harder. I have had blogs before but I have never written them longer than for a year. The oldest of my blogs, Go Travel Global, will be two years next February. I have never gotten this far so I have no idea if the writing will get easier. That’s what I want to believe and so 2018 will be dedicated to blogging.

I know that I have told these plans to you earlier. “I will start writing twice a week. No more blogging breaks. Hey, I am back!” When we talk about schedule, I’m the worst. However, this time I have made schedule once again and my plan is to make this really happen. The secret? I started reading writing guidebooks a few months back and all of the books have one staying theme: You have to keep doing it and think it as a job or you won’t succeed. I am going to be blogging more than ever just you wait!

So, what is my ambitious plan?

Mondays: I will publish review post on Reviews From Idiot

Wednesdays: Wanderlust Wednesdays are back! Post every week in Go Travel Global

Fridays: Blog post about living as a writer in my writer’s blog Lost Writer Viivi

Rest of the days I will be posting on this blog. That’s a lot of blogging, right? In fact, if you did read that carefully it means blogging every day of the week for whole year. 

Don’t look me whit those judging eyes! You can think that I will get bored after a few days if you want. When I once decide to really do something there is no stopping me! Lately, I have been thinking a lot and come to the decision that even more than traveling I want to do blogging and writing. My content may not be perfect yet but I think my English skills and writing skills in general get better every time I write something.

Many people do daily vlogging nowadays so can we please start a new trend of daily blogging?

This seems crazy but hey that’s who I am!

Are you ready to start this crazy year with me?

With love,

Viivi Who Fell For Blogging…

I am struggling with procrastination

I procrastinate more than most of the people. If there is any task I have to do before an exact date, it’s 99% possibility that I won’t do it until there are about three hours left. And still, I never return anything late. And usually, my work gets praised. During high school and primary school, this worked just fine. I had a deadline for almost everything and I did well in tests without studying but now when I am officially “adult” everything is a struggle.

At mornings I know exactly what I should do during the day but when I fall asleep at night I have never done everything. With sending emails or making phone calls it gets even worse. For example, right now I have been trying to make one call to my bank for about six months. SIX MONTHS. That’s not an even bad situation in my bad case because one email has been waiting to be sent for 10 months and let’s not even speak about the emails and calls I never made.

Someone, please help me. Is there a way to get out of this endless ring?

Inspirations for today’s text was from this amazing TED Talk.
If you are like me, please watch it and tell your own experiences in the comments!

In this post series, I write 10 minutes without stopping, editing or planning anything. I just write whatever is in my mind and publish it like that. 
Expect to see more of this every Thursday!

With love,

Procrastinating Viivi

Whatever I fail or succeed…

I am like small kid on her first day of school. Except I am literally dying because I am so scared. 30 minutes before I have to leave. 1 hour of driving before I will be there. My stress level is out of the roof. I don’t know if this is good or bed thing. I don’t think I have been this scared of anything in long time. Especially not about starting school. Is that good or bad sign?

Today is my first day in university. Today is the day I finally start studying something I have always dreamed of but never truly believed would be possible.

Creative writing.

I am going to study creative writing. My head is screaming that this is bad idea but at the same time that this is the only right route I can take. Writing is my thing. I has always been. I was one of the last people on my class at school who learned how to read and write but after I started there was no stopping me. Being writer would be the only right job for me.

But I already know today is going to be hard. There will be other people. People who are probably better than I. People who write amazing stories, who have experience and who know what they are doing. I have just never finished books, anxiety and doubt of my own skills. It’s always as hard to show my texts for others. My first reaction is always wait for the critic. I love writing but it doesn’t mean I am good at it, right?

My heart is bounding so loudly, hands shaking and stomach hurting. It’s hard to breath and there is this never ending screaming voice in my head. I am scared. I am so scared of this evening. And still there is this stubborn kid inside of me telling how I have finally found the right way.

I would give everything to just write everyday. I would stop traveling, I would stay locked in my room for weeks, I would only eat healthy food for the rest of my life. Anything to write. Be writer.

So, wish me luck. I am going to try with all I got. Whatever I fail or succeed. Whatever my fears are trying to take me down. This is my dream and the only thing I can really do with my life.

With love,

Viivi with Dreams