Low point in my life

You know you have a problem when your procrastination has found a totally new level of stupidity. You are leaving away for over a week tomorrow morning but haven’t even packed yet because you’re stuck watching coin pusher and claw machine videos from the internet. Why the heck coin pusher and claw machines of all the videos you could possibly enjoy? It’s so addicting and especially when you should be packing, working and cleaning.

I was doing so good with my daily blogging. For a week and a half. I posted every day and it was so much fun. Then I decided to skip one day. Just one day… That’s not a bad thing, right? But then that one day changed to two days and now almost to three days and it feels again so hard to come up with ideas for posts. Look at me, I’m just complaining. It’s the easiest form of writing: bad feelings and stupid worries.

But at least I am traveling tomorrow. And my week has been full of meeting my best friends. I have written a lot and worked regularly. Everything should be good but it’s just hard to get anything done. It’s almost midnight and I should still do so many things before going to sleep. Maybe just one more claw machine video. Ten more minutes and then I will continue my chores… or not…

But aren’t those videos just so addicting? Now I want to play some arcade games.

With love,

Viivi with problem

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I am struggling with procrastination

I procrastinate more than most of the people. If there is any task I have to do before an exact date, it’s 99% possibility that I won’t do it until there are about three hours left. And still, I never return anything late. And usually, my work gets praised. During high school and primary school, this worked just fine. I had a deadline for almost everything and I did well in tests without studying but now when I am officially “adult” everything is a struggle.

At mornings I know exactly what I should do during the day but when I fall asleep at night I have never done everything. With sending emails or making phone calls it gets even worse. For example, right now I have been trying to make one call to my bank for about six months. SIX MONTHS. That’s not an even bad situation in my bad case because one email has been waiting to be sent for 10 months and let’s not even speak about the emails and calls I never made.

Someone, please help me. Is there a way to get out of this endless ring?

Inspirations for today’s text was from this amazing TED Talk.
If you are like me, please watch it and tell your own experiences in the comments!

In this post series, I write 10 minutes without stopping, editing or planning anything. I just write whatever is in my mind and publish it like that. 
Expect to see more of this every Thursday!

With love,

Procrastinating Viivi