Sometimes I don’t want this travel life

After two years of traveling the world as much as possible while dreaming of life as a full time traveler and writing fastly growing travel blog, it’s scary to realize that in fact, you don’t want to travel. You have been running towards this magical life waiting for the perfect happiness just to see that this won’t be the right things for you. Maybe traveling isn’t the answer?

I don’t want you to understand this the wrong way. There is nothing better than sitting hours on an airplane going towards unknown, meeting strangers in hostel dorms and seeing the sunset in a new city every morning. I love traveling and I could not live without it. But there is something else that keeps me grounded.

I can’t stay at home for too long because my feet get itchy and mind starts to wander to new countries. But at the same time being in a new country for too long tires me endlessly. Waking up is hard. Let me tell you a secret: I may be staying in this amazing new country with so many places to explore but all I can think about is that I want to go back home. There are so many things to see. Maybe too much.

This may not make sense to you but for me, it’s the reality. I am lost like usually and still, I know exactly where I should go. Traveling is my thing. Definitely. But so is staying at home, sleeping long and just writing endless stories while staying in my bed from morning until I am too hungry to continue. I want both. Is it wrong of me to not want to decide?

In perfect case scenario, I would live every other month in a new city. Tourist attractions, unknown streets and writing my diary in small cozy cafes while watching the locals around me. Writing travel blog about my experiences and thoughts while experiencing all these unforgettable things. Finding new friends and meeting the ones who I have met before because of this crazy life of traveling I currently live.

But then after a month or sometimes maybe two, I would take that plane back to home. My back would be full of souvenirs and gifts for my family and friends. My blog would be still full of travel photos and stories I haven’t yet been ready to share. The first few days would just go by sleeping in my own bed and watching Netflix, relaxing and meeting friends. Then my days would be full of writing. Stories of my adventures but also about everything else. Going to seminars or attending to all kind of open university glasses.

For a month or sometimes maybe two, I would hang out back at home walking the streets I know so well. During that time I could work even more writing and maybe doing a little bit of translating to get by. My main aim, however, should be creative writing that I am even now studying. Then after that time at home, my feet would take me again to new countries and unknown places.

Being free and going where ever you want. Is that too much to ask?

With love,

Viivi who wants everything

 

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Back home but not really

Hello there!
How are you? I have just returned to home from my almost three weeks long trip around Eastern Europe and like always after coming back home I am kind of lost. I love just relaxing at home but at the same time I have too much time. Nothing has changed even if once again I have learned so many new things.

I have had an adventure that should change the whole world but everything is like before I left. My room is still a big mess and far from the point where I could even think about cleaning it. My family and friends still go to school and work like before I left. Everyone smiles and talks like I had been here all along. They have all the rights to continue their lives like before but it’s hard for me.

Every time I come back I want to leave again even more badly. My feet get itchy and mind wonders thousands of kilometers to other worlds. I can’t stop writing stories of my feelings. Maybe I am just meant to be wanderer who never returns? But then again I know that this three weeks was close to my own limit. Waking up in new city every other day is amazing but gets tiring after a while. I needed this break and still my mind just wants to go despite the tiredness of my body.

Traveling is addictive. It’s a little bit like smoking or using drugs. You know that being on the road all the time won’t be good for you. It’s stressful and it wears down your body. You know you shouldn’t and still you keep looking for those new flights like alcoholic for the bottle. You just have to and that’s it.

I have been at home for two days. Two full days and I already feel like my mind never truly returned. I love being at home. I love seeing my friends and family. I love sleeping in my own bed dreaming endlessly of nothing. I love just being here and relaxing in the safe environment I am used to. I love home but for some reason I can’t enjoy it for 100%. There is always this small voice telling me to go. Go and see new places, new worlds, new miracles.

Is this just me? Or is this one of the traveler problems we all have? Maybe I have just bad case of wanderlust or my mind is tired of the normal life. Whatever the reason is I am not sure how to control this. Writing seems to help. Writing this blog, writing stories and even writing work things. My two passions. Writing and traveling. I have to find the balance between them…

So, have you ever felt like this? What is in your mind after you have returned from big adventure?

With love,

Always Lost Viivi

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I don’t want to leave, but I can’t stay

Week before traveling is always the hardest but also the easiest time for me. I am never truly there. My mind is already traveling towards the soon to be adventures, new cities I will take over and those experiences only I can… well… experience. Whatever I do in the end my mind will go back to the things I have to pack, counting the minutes to my take-off and of course planning all the things I will do.

It is hard to be truly here back at home but at the same time it is a lot easier week when compared to other week of my back at home life. Why? I know that I am leaving soon. It may sound bad. I would love to be someone who loved to be back at home with her family and never leave everyone else behind. But I can’t and that’s why the days before traveling are some of the best ones I ever have back at home.

During these few days my mind is always at traveling but at the same time I am meeting so many friends, spending time with my family and trying to enjoy every second I have with them. I love being back at home because of these people so dear to me and still nothing could hold me here for too long. It makes week before traveling so important.

During this time I always remember why these people are so close to my heart and why I have to return after having my own small adventure.

Sometimes it feels like I am living between two words. I have two totally different personalities. I am Viivi who never wants to leave and I am Viivi who never wants to stay. It’s unsettling and still I wouldn’t change it to anything.

So, these next few days I will enjoy my life here back at home. I will meet friends, I will help my sister at moving to her first own home, I will eat Finnish food and live in my grandpa’s basement. But then on Sunday I will board the plane. I will go towards my new adventure, I will write all the time, I will meet new people, eat new foods and enjoy every second of this time I so badly need.

This is my life and for some odd reason I have grown to love it.

Sorry for yet another random text. I hope you are having an amazing day.
With love,

Viivi with mixed feelings 

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Sunshine Blogger Award

Hello everyone! Today I will be answering to some Sunshine Blogger Award questions. It’s always honor to be nominated for blogger awards (and I just love to answer any kind of questions) so I’m really thankful for Len Kagami. I totally love Len’s blog so remember to check it out. His photos and stories are perfect to read if you need some wanderlust for your day.

 

What is Sunshine Blogger Award?

Sunshine blogger award is given out by bloggers to fellow bloggers who blog about positive, happy and inspiring content.

If my nominees want to accept the award, I encourage you to read and follow the rules below:

  • Thank the person who nominated you in a blog post and link back to their blogs.
  • Answer the eleven questions sent by the person who nominated you.
  • Nominate eleven blogs to receive the award and write them eleven new questions.
  • List the rules and display the Sunshine Blogger Award logo in your post and/or your blog.

 

And here are my answers to the 11 questions:

1.When did you start blogging and why?

I think February? Almost a year ago (haven’t even realized it has been so long!) I started for many reasons. Firstly my English sucks so I want to get better at it. Secondly I hoped my blogging would maybe inspire other people or at least make them smile or dream. And thirdly I just simply love writing and travelling, so why not?

2.What is your favorite destination and why?

I think this is clear for anyone ever seen my blog (or maybe not?) but I have totally fallen in love with Japan and specially Kyoto. I don’t even have reason why. That city just feels like a home for me. It’s beautiful, full of kind people and has anything you need from perfect Japanese experience.

3.Name five destinations on your bucket list?

Check out my bucketlist from here. But five destinations are:

  • Santorini, Greece.
  • Seoul, South Korea
  • Australia or New Zealand
  • Rio De Janeiro, Brazil
  • Reykjavik, Iceland

4.Do you prefer to travel alone or with others?

Can’t decide so both.

5.Name three Must-have items for you while traveling (mobile phones and camera do not count, as we always bring them with us)?

Headphones (can’t live without them), woolen socks and my notebook.

6.Which meal do you think you cannot skip while traveling?

Dessert

7.Do you prefer local specialties or something you are familiar with like burger, pasta, etc.?

I eat everything but I prefer to try new things.

8.If you have tried some specialties, which dish left a strong impression on you?

Can I just say Sushi?

9.Who is the most interesting person you have ever met on your journey?

I have so many I can’t pick one! Let’s just stay being awake in hostel’s common room at evening forces you to meet all kind of people.

10.Assumed that you are a solo traveler, are you afraid to ask strangers for help, or maybe just take a picture for you?

I totally am solo traveller and this is kind of complicated question. If I need real help, like if I am hurt or in danger, I have no problems of asking help. But if I need to ask directions or someone to take photo of me I can’t do it. I’m scared of people.

11.Have you ever getting into trouble (e.g. scams, thefts, lost luggage, etc.) or any dangerous situation while traveling? How did you handle the situation?

This question inspired me to write my tomorrow’s travel blog post about this story I haven’t yet told. Let’s just say it has something to do with Japan, getting lost, abandoned amusement park and polices who don’t speak English. And like I usually handle all the situation I kept apologizing and apologizing until I go forgiven.

 

My questions for the nominees:

1.At what age did you travel for the first time? And where?
2.What are some places from your home country that you would recommend for travellers?
3.Tell us about person who inspires or motivates you
4.Describe your blog in three words
5.If you should decide one country to stay the rest of your life, what country would it be?
6.Share your best secret travel tip.
7.What is your own favorite post from your blog?
8.Have you travel plans for the year 2017?
9.If tomorrow you could get last minute flight to anywhere, what would be your destination?
10.What is the scariest part in travelling?
11.Do you have any words of gratitude to share with the people reading your blog?

 

The people I nominate:

I have always been bad and nominating people for things like this. I mean what if they don’t want to answer and I nominate them? So I will just nominate everyone reading this! I don’t even need to see your blog and I’m sure it is inspiring, cool and just plainly amazing.

Just write comment below if you want to take the nomination and answers the questions I wrote. I will then add your name here to the people I have nominated. (Also I always love to check out new blogs so anyone is welcome to share their blog in the comments.)

 

I hope you are having an amazing day!
With love,

Viivi Severina

I Need Insane Courage

Few days ago I published the article linked below in my travel blog. I really needed the message it was trying to tell. I have been missing from internet (meaning not much time for blogging, social media, etc.) for exactly week today. If you are now asking what happened to me, let me tell you shortly.

Week ago I got confirmation from school. I got in to study business. It was little crazy because I only had two days before my school would start far away from my home. I didn’t have apartment, nor did I know the city I would be living the next three years.

Somehow I survived to this new scary city and even successfully attended to my first four school days. Only negative sides I have to say is that I’m so tired my writing won’t probably make a lot of sense (sorry…)

Yeah, but just wanted to update you that I’m still alive and will soon write more about my embarrassing and interesting school life. (Embarrassing because I’m the world’s most awkward person and my attempts to make friends are not been pretty to watch…)

I hope you are having amazing start for your week!
With love,

Viivi Severina

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The Traveler Who Lacks Courage

Today I wanted to talk you about something that has been on my mind recently.

Courage.

To be specific courage to travel. Now you may think how can the starting travel blogger be struggling with something so simple. Well any problem isn’t small if it prevents you from doing what you want.

So courage to travel. For me it’s something I radically lack. I have already given up with going to university right now (or to be clearer maybe that plan never was so important for me…) I know traveling is the next step for me to do.

BUT…

Yes, there is the big but named courage.

One personality trait I would give away right now is worrying. What if I fail? what will I do if I run out of money? I’m probably not going to find a job. Everything will go badly and it will not be what I wanted from my life. What if I try to make this writing thing a life and don’t succeed? There is no other way for me to live

And so I stare my plans and don’t know what to do. I loaned Australia books from library but can’t open them. I check airline tickets to South Korea at least three times a day (on incognito browser because I know too much about traveling cheap). I have everything planned out: volunteering three months in Korea, going to working holiday in Australia and after that maybe living the life where I just keep traveling.

Only thing I don’t have it the courage to make my plans true. I haven’t shared them with anyone before this. I feel like telling someone means they will laugh at me and make my dreams nightmares.

Last time I bought the tickets without telling anyone and left before they even realized. This time I’m going to find my strength. Today I am going to tell my plan for my parents, friends and for my scared soul. It’s time to make my life my own.

 

With courage and love,

Neidotta