She was bird without wings

Sixteenth of December
She was bird, she was cat, she was endless sky with million bats. She lived bravely but scared of everything. Her days were full of sun and moon, sleepy days and sleepless nights. Negatives and positives circled around the body of her. A lifetime of opposites being all she got. Flying like a bird and laying down like a cat. She became everything a small girl could be and still she wasn’t quite like people believed.

She wanted to fly and fly and fly. But there was always that one risk: falling down, breaking wings. Nothing could stop her from dreaming of it. Those beautiful skies full of birds. Huge wings shaking in the wind taking them around the world again and again. She wanted to be like them, a bird with wings so strong she could keep flying and never land. But it wasn’t possible. Not every bird know how to fly. Not every bird can be on the sky. Her wings were cut off, disappeared, taken from her. She was a bird without wings doomed to live forever in the world of those going to die.

She missed the sky but she loved the ground. Sleeping through the day like cat was dream achieved. Doing nothing. Living without purpose. It was perfect until it was not. One day, two days, three days she was okay. Sleep, relax and see dreams. But days four and five and six she lost her will of being silly. Day after day it became harder and harder to stand back up and be like a bird. Sleeping like a cat not knowing about the world felt just fine. But not anyone can live that forever. You start to wonder. What if? What has she missed? Is this all I truly have? Could I have flown if I wings still had?

 

(This text was written in ten minutes without thinking anything. I did almost no editing and decided to publish it just like this. Nowadays, I call myself a writer. I even study creative writing in uni. But my problem: I write in Finnish. This blog is in English. In my opinion, it’s sometimes good to publish texts that aren’t so great or ready. Maybe in a few years, I can return to this one and see how long way I have gone with my English skills? Or so I hope…) 

With love,

Viivi Scared of Writing

 

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10 Minutes Thursday

I have decided to start new writing series in this lost side blog of mine. If you don’t know, I started studying creative writing in university. And if you are ever studied writing in any way you may be familiar with this technique. 10 minutes of writing without stopping to think anything at any point. You just write whatever comes to your mind without editing or deleting. So, here is my first 10 minutes of writing the flow of my thoughts.
Expect to see more of this every Thursday!

I change my mind. I change my life. I change everything every day and every moment. I am allergic to staying, being and just getting stuck. My friends work towards that one goal they want. People I knew back at my childhood and teen years have families, homes and real work. I write, I travel and I change my plans daily.

My mind is running every second of the day. What new can I do today? What new can I try now? I try to be something totally different. Too long in one place is like death sentence for me. How can some people just keep living that same old life they were “meant to live”? I have wanted to be everything from rock start to astronaut and I still do even now. I may be adult but my mind keeps dreaming about these things others call silly.

I only have this one life but my mind wants to do hundred of different things. And that’s why I write. I write to live millions of lives in one lifetime. I write to see countries that don’t even exist and to fall in love with people who would never even see me in the real life. I write about fears and winning them so I will be strong. My stories are here to make me better person who can dream and achieve those dreams one by one. Never giving up.

Most people don’t get it. I never really speak about it. What writing means for me? Why do I write? I can’t even explain it with words. Writing is the only way to speak about it. I write to create something beautiful instead of seeing this scary ugly world outside of my window. Writing is my way of escaping. It’s my way of living.

With love,

Viivi Who Writes

October Addictions

It’s again the end of another month and that means we get to take closer look to my life during that month. Are you ready to hear about my likes and dislikes?

My Month In A Few Words:

October has been busy one. The school has properly started, I went to London and have met a lot of new people.

School
I haven’t learnt so many new things yet but I am totally enjoying the subjects. Marketing, law and business. I think this may be my thing but can’t be sure yet. Currently this is my only school plan so let’s see where is goes.

Blogging
My blog isn’t secret anymore so it has caused some extra stress for me. I try to not think it too much but it’s hard. I don’t even know if poeple I know are reading. I just know they now know about this blog (if they have found it trough my travel blog).

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October Addictions:

Music

I have been mostly listening inspiration playlists from Youtube but in addition to that here are some of my lately addiction songs:

BTS – Blood, Sweat & Tears

What is there not to love in this song? The music video is too artsy for me but everything else makes me fall in love with BTS all over again. And I just want to point out that the whole album (you can find it from Spotify) is golden! Suga’s song “First Love” is masterpiece.

Hayley Kiyoko

Hayley is one of my favorite singers and actresses. It’s kind of funny story. First time I have ever seen her was probably the Disney Channel movie ‘Lemonade Mouth’, then in the Fosters and somewhere between there I had listened her music. I just never realised it was same girl in that movie, TV show and songs. The I saw her in CSI: Cyber and she quickly became my favorite actress and singer. She is brilliant and so is this song!

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Movies

Now You See Me 2
I loved the first movie and the second one didn’t dissapoint me even if I had high expections. I’m in love with Jack, totally my kind of man. If you don’t know the story I can just say: watch this if you lov magic, thieves and cute friendships. It’s a little bit like a leverage but with magic. Basically it has everything I hope for a good plot.

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TV-series

House Of Lies
I tought this Tv-series was about law and boring stuff (I’m not a fan of law shows..) But then I read from somewhere that it’s kind of similar as Leverage (my ultimate favorite TV show ever!) so I decided to give it a change. I kind of like it. A little too much nudity and dirty jokes for my tastes.

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Books

Harry Potter
I didn’t have a lot of time to read this month (well expect some school books…). However because we decided to visit Harry Potter studio tour thing in London of course I had to read something Potter related to get in mood. I read the first chapters of book three but didn’t have time to finish it…

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Places

Empty Beach
I did small trip to the nearby beach to see the sunrise. I don’t know anything as beautiful as empty beach and the day getting brighter and brighter every moment. See the photo belov. Beautiful isn’t it?

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The Important Questions Of October:

What it means to write blog when “real” people are reading?
I still have no idea… Maybe continue as before and try to not think it too much?

How to install new fire alarm?
Last month I was pondering how to change the battery of fire alarm. Suprisingly I learnt that! But also realized that the fire alarm I had used so much time to change the battery didn’t work… So now my problem is how the heck do I use this new alarm my mom gave to me. I can’t adult…

Vilken annan bransch skulle intressera dig?
This question is in swedish. I have no idea what it means and it’s my homework to answer it (and twenty other questions). I’m totally in trouble and don’t know how can I ever pass this course!

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Where Have I Travelled?

London
We went with my sister to London! I have been there four times (I think?) and it never gets old. I totally love big cities and masses running around the streets. I had fun and experienced a lot touristy and some not so touristy things.

Train travelling
I have been going back and forth between my new home and former home cities. I like being in train because I always get a lot work done. (I’m in train right now!)

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Plans for September

Survive alive from the stressful school days. Yeah, that’s it.

How are you?

With love,

Viivi Severina

10 Reasons I Love Living Alone

I think this is going to be new thing to make me write more! So every Sunday list of 10 things. You will get to know what I love, hate or just don’t understand in this world. Funny, right?

Today I wanted to share list of 10 reasons I love living alone (and probably the list of 10 things why my neighbors hate me…) I have now lived three months on my own so it was easy to made this list. Enjoy!

 

1.I can have late night movie marathon if I want without someone complaining I should be sleeping.

2.Cooking noodles at 4am and watching cat videos from youtube.

3.Sleeping where ever you want in the apartment. Sofa, kitchen floor, under my bed, where ever! 

4.No one is eating my food, touching my stuff or stealing my things.

5.Peaceful quietness around the clock. (Expect when my neighbors decide to sing too loudly in the shower…)

6.Spending all day long in my pajamas and walking around in underwear.

7.Dancing and singing as loudly as I can. No one can hear me so no reasons to be embarrassed. 

8.Being my messy self without anyone minding. (Well expect when someone decides to visit and I have to somehow clean the whole apartment in seconds…)

9.Feeling free fully capable adult. Even if I probably shouldn’t feel that way because I currently live with microwave and school food.

10.All the possibilities living alone makes. I can invite anyone I want to visit me. Be awake and do anything I want at any hour of the day. Go out whenever I want or stay inside the whole day. Just do anything without other people judging me.

 

Why do you love or hate living alone? Do you disagree or agree with my points?

And like usually remember to check out my “real” blog GoTravelGolbal. And if you want you can also follow me on Instagram and Twitter.

With love,

Viivi Severina

Not so anonymous blog anymore

So like you may know I have been writing my blogs secretly from my family and friends. Writing blog is quite embarrassing. My English isn’t that good and my posts plainly boring for the most of the time. I meant to tell them when I got thousand readers but internet beat me on that.

My blog isn’t secret anymore. My family and friends know about it.

How did that happen?

Well, let me tell you a story…

Week ago on Friday right after I had published my Photo Diary I opened my Instagram. (Once again shamelessly self promoting: Check out my Instagram for boring photos and me trying to be artistic! Spoiler: I’m only TRYING to be artistic…) But back to the story, it was quite a shock when first thing I saw was my cousins face and name pop up as person who had just followed me.

Apparently Instagram had suggested my account as person she maybe knows. It’s still mystery how that is possible. I have been over protective of my accounts and haven’t used them with my Facebook or other personal social medias. I mean I have used them only in my iPad and haven’t never used that iPad to log in my Facebook, etc. Internet knows too much…

But after my cousins knew I had to tell for my family  and best friends. Now I have too much stress about this writing thing! I never guessed it would be this had when you know someone important may read what you say. (I don’t mean you aren’t important but someone who knows who really knows my identity.) 

So hello family and friends if you are reading this! Welcome to my blog and please don’t dig too deeply what I have been writing because I really have no idea what you may find.

 

With love,

Viivi Severina

Busy Life

I have been so busy lately!

In the last few weeks I have…

Exhanged first time guest posts. Check my post HERE

Did my first translation gigs in Fiverr.

Moved to new city and now live alone for the first time on my own.

Went to school again to study bussiness.

Got finally my own domain for my travel blog. www.gotravelglobal.com

Try to make new friends but still failing badly in it…

Promised to write post every Wednesday to my travel blog but didn’t have time for that.

Travelled with my friend to Estonia. And planned too many new trips to do this year.

Have been staying too much inside doing nothing and being scared of the new city around me.

Lived week without microwave or over.

Drank too much cheap tea and tried to ask tarot cards to tell me my future.

Survived my first weeks living alone. Haven’t hurt myself (or my neighbours) yet!

 Been total failure in life but still somehow got trought it and found some confidence in myself.
So this has been my life lately. How have you been?

With love,

Viivi Severina

 

 

 

 

 

I Need Insane Courage

Few days ago I published the article linked below in my travel blog. I really needed the message it was trying to tell. I have been missing from internet (meaning not much time for blogging, social media, etc.) for exactly week today. If you are now asking what happened to me, let me tell you shortly.

Week ago I got confirmation from school. I got in to study business. It was little crazy because I only had two days before my school would start far away from my home. I didn’t have apartment, nor did I know the city I would be living the next three years.

Somehow I survived to this new scary city and even successfully attended to my first four school days. Only negative sides I have to say is that I’m so tired my writing won’t probably make a lot of sense (sorry…)

Yeah, but just wanted to update you that I’m still alive and will soon write more about my embarrassing and interesting school life. (Embarrassing because I’m the world’s most awkward person and my attempts to make friends are not been pretty to watch…)

I hope you are having amazing start for your week!
With love,

Viivi Severina

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I’m addicted to getting lost. Walking unknown paths, not having map, getting scared of unfamiliar streets. Some people would say I am crazy. And maybe that is why I keep most of my los…

Source: Travel Rant: Insane Courage

In Moment Everything Can Change

I’m sitting in my bed knowing tomorrow I will leave this place I call home. It’s been ten hours after I decided to take the student place given to me. Day after tomorrow will be the first day of school. Tomorrow I’m moving far away to live on my own. 

I’s scared and I’m thrilled.

What if I don’t survive? Or even better what if I do? What if this is the way for me to fulfill all my dreams?

I want to write, travel and film videos. I want to make people happy and educate them. I want to make my own bisness and success in it. I have so many dreams and don’t know where this road I have chosen will take me.

I’m going to study business. I already know some of the classes will make me inspired and full of energy. But I also know that some of the classes will bore me to death. I don’t know if this school will be the right one for me but I want to try.

I’m not the student type person. I would rather do everything by myself and travel the world. However I have decided to this my way. Book weekends full of adventures and use the boring lesson to plan ways to archieve my goals. If I believe in myself, anything is possible.

You should too believe in yourself because there is no impossible dreams.

With love,

Viivi Severina

Buying Domain!

I did something crazy and finally bought domain for my travel blog. I’m so thrilled and exited and proud. I would have never guessed this happening. Funny fact is that it has only been under four months from the times when I didn’t even have ten followers. When did all those 700 people start to read my writings?

Maybe I’m just over reacting but for me this is something I would have never expected. I started writing blogs to learn better English and save my travels for myself. Though it’s more interesting to write when someone is reading.

So now check out my travel blog from

www.gotravelglobal.com

This is amazing. I have had quite bad week so this decision really made my day.

I hope everyone is having as good day as I am. I will keep writing so see you soon.
With love,

Viivi Severina

Diary: Train to my Future

Dear diary,

it’s me again. Today I’m writing from train. I have been sitting here four hours already and have still another four to go. It’s long way but totally worth it. So where I am going?

I haven’t yet talked about this on my blogs but I am following my destiny. I don’t even know if I believe in destiny but if I did this would be perfect example of it happening. This train will take me to other side of Finland and to school entrance exams.

If you have been reading my blogs you may know that year ago I decided to have gap year because I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life. Then I volunteered three months in hostels and found the way I want to live. However after I returned home my family pressured me to apply in “good” universities.

I got badly sick just before the university exams were and didn’t get in. I was again without direction in my life. Or so I though. My mum had decided that her daughter will not have yet another gap year and made me to look the school that were still searching for new students.

Today I am going to entrance exam of school where I can learn about hospitality management and tourism. I never tought I would end up living in Lapland but now all I hope is that I will get in this school. I also never ever considered this area of studying before this school.

So four hours to go until I’m in Rovaniemi and one night until the exam. Wish me luck!

With love,

Viivi Severina

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